Enough of faux sexual virgin exploits. My therapists say i cant handle stress and that i should apply for 1 or 2 day a week jobs. But the only offers im getting through my employment agency are for traineeships. The choice is take it on and possibly fail, feel like crap but if i do I suppose i can from then on only apply for that very part time work. Thats how i look at it, this oppurtunity through job agency is probably not going to be perfect (if i even get it) and even though i am aware of my massive issues atm and lack of energy i feel like i should give it a shot. I was also thinking today maybe floristry would be a nice thing to get into, not because im overly into flowers, but because i think it would be a good working environment, also making things which are creative in their ways and make people happy.. but the traineeship is for a PCA... which is fine.. ive always wanted to give back to the community in a health or welfare related field.. but i am feeling limited lately about my ability to give so much. Had a few tearful sessions, feeling pretty crap generally, but i am dealing atm on a low functioning level... much love to you all... i feel im able to blog truthfully on this site.. so thats a plus... id ont blog this way on my other social networking sites.. so much loveto SG feeling safe for me... started to think about some more portraits for my leg. i was thinking of making the whole leg a theme of portraits for my idols. Ive got the Bob DYlan portrait... and maybe Allen Ginsberg will be next... id love to get some piercings but i dont know if they suit bigger people like myself... anyway much love again...
Love you all.
Love you all.
cosmacosmic:
A job can be a good distraction from all the other shit going on in your life. I say go for it. But make sure it is something you actually enjoy doing.