AHHHHH tomorrow I get paid, and the whole check doesn't have to go to rent. i.e. I will actually have a few dollars in my pocket this week. This is a very good thing. I have been way too broke this month. I feel like a God damned vagrant, all eating ramen noodles out of zip top bags at work, and smoking 1.38$ rollies. Next week I go high class.
Thats right, I am getting some gladware for my ramen, and buying 3.50$ rollies.
in other news...
One of my big goals, for after I moved to Philly, was to start photographing every day. Well with one month down, that just hasn't happened. I have shot exactly once since moving. I actually like the results of that one shoot, quite a bit, but I still need to do a little post production on it, and my laptop has a shattered screen. I suppose I will get around to that eventually. Other than that one shoot, I just can't find any way to motivate myself photo wise. It is really odd. I can never remember a time that I couldn't have picked up a camera at any moment, and had 10 things in my head that I wanted to shoot, before I even got he lens cap off. That is one of the things that made me love photo in the first place, it just makes so much sense to me, and fits the way my head works. The fact that I am at least moderately talented in the field doesn't hurt either. Lately though, nothing. I pick up my camera every few days and look at it, and then put it back down. it has become a 2000$ pile of laundry weight.
Here is the odd thing. I am NOT artistically uninspired, or inactive. My head is practically bursting with things that I want to work on, and I have been drawing my ass off, like hours every day. The things is, I am not really so good at drawing, but it is all that I want to do lately, so I draw a lot and enjoy it, but throw most of it away. I mean, I do have a decent amount of training in it, since i took a lot of drawing and design courses in college, but I just don't seem to have much inherent talent as far as it goes. All the practice is really starting to help though. The whole drawing more often thing started maybe a year ago, and has been out of control for the past month or two, and when I look at my work now, while I still don't think it is particularly great, it is sooo much better than it was.
Thats right, I am getting some gladware for my ramen, and buying 3.50$ rollies.
in other news...
One of my big goals, for after I moved to Philly, was to start photographing every day. Well with one month down, that just hasn't happened. I have shot exactly once since moving. I actually like the results of that one shoot, quite a bit, but I still need to do a little post production on it, and my laptop has a shattered screen. I suppose I will get around to that eventually. Other than that one shoot, I just can't find any way to motivate myself photo wise. It is really odd. I can never remember a time that I couldn't have picked up a camera at any moment, and had 10 things in my head that I wanted to shoot, before I even got he lens cap off. That is one of the things that made me love photo in the first place, it just makes so much sense to me, and fits the way my head works. The fact that I am at least moderately talented in the field doesn't hurt either. Lately though, nothing. I pick up my camera every few days and look at it, and then put it back down. it has become a 2000$ pile of laundry weight.
Here is the odd thing. I am NOT artistically uninspired, or inactive. My head is practically bursting with things that I want to work on, and I have been drawing my ass off, like hours every day. The things is, I am not really so good at drawing, but it is all that I want to do lately, so I draw a lot and enjoy it, but throw most of it away. I mean, I do have a decent amount of training in it, since i took a lot of drawing and design courses in college, but I just don't seem to have much inherent talent as far as it goes. All the practice is really starting to help though. The whole drawing more often thing started maybe a year ago, and has been out of control for the past month or two, and when I look at my work now, while I still don't think it is particularly great, it is sooo much better than it was.
I've been getting into my winter craft mode. All I think about all day at work is going home and making shit. All about it, I wish I didn't have to work. If I could come into $20,000 I would pay off all my debt buy a fuck ton of supplies and take a month off.
That'd be so dope.
you coming sunday?
cut back on a smoke or two and buy a roll of film, and bring it to my place
im not even remotely talented, and i shoot every day, maybe if we hang we can balance eachother out and make some run of the mill pics
im game