PART I
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When I was in the 7th grade I met this girl at church. Her name was Mandy Brown.
We HATED each other. Or...she hated ME...and so...naturally, out of spite...I had to hate her back. I had to hate her better and more fully.
Then we got stuck together in the back seat of a car going to a summer camp for like...
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When I was in the 7th grade I met this girl at church. Her name was Mandy Brown.
We HATED each other. Or...she hated ME...and so...naturally, out of spite...I had to hate her back. I had to hate her better and more fully.
Then we got stuck together in the back seat of a car going to a summer camp for like...
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So last night I finished my first fall class. I've never wanted to jab myself in the ears more in my fucking life as I did as my fucking Econ professor droned on about puchasing power parity. It would'nt be half so bad if she did'nt speak with the worst eastern european accent and stutter after every 8 words.
The only thing that made it...
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The only thing that made it...
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t3chmonkey:
Listen to you, Mr Socialite. Mr I-do-stuff.
That's a long way from watching paint dry.
That's a long way from watching paint dry.
kundalini:
Australian girls rock my world like a hurricane. (Whoops, I'm refering to the old Scorpions song, not that trouble down in Florida.) Best of luck!!
Hahahahahahaha! A lumberjack!!
See what happens when you hang out in Michigan too long...?
(Edited to make joke at expense of my home state.)
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Hahahahahahaha! A lumberjack!!
See what happens when you hang out in Michigan too long...?
(Edited to make joke at expense of my home state.)
[Edited on Sep 02, 2004 1:58PM]
you take me for granted
as if I'll wait forever
as if I didnt have a choice
you fail to see what you're missing
but I guess that's easy to do when you fail to look at all
an attempt would be enough
even if you fell on your face trying
like I do...
over and over again
I'd meet you halfway...
if this wasnt...
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as if I'll wait forever
as if I didnt have a choice
you fail to see what you're missing
but I guess that's easy to do when you fail to look at all
an attempt would be enough
even if you fell on your face trying
like I do...
over and over again
I'd meet you halfway...
if this wasnt...
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armsxlikexblades:
haha...no worries guys. I've got other great girls waiting in the wings. They just are'nt.....her.
nadya:
geez what an idiot that girl is... want me to kick her ass!?!
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[Edited on Sep 01, 2004 5:22PM]
"It is wrong to think that love comes from long companionship and persevering courtship. Love is the offspring of spiritual affinity and unless that affinity is created in a moment, it will not be created for years or even generations."
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I have always believed that love is a choice one makes. I don't believe we "fall" in or out of love...although certain conditions can...
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I have always believed that love is a choice one makes. I don't believe we "fall" in or out of love...although certain conditions can...
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virgins_prayer:
Ouch Ouch Ouch 
drexel:
haha.
SHUT UP!!!!
SHUT UP!!!!
I want to start a band and call it WISCONSCENTRATION CAMP.
Is that distasteful? Do I really care?
I want to fall in love.
I want to not be sick. *cough* *cough*
I don't want to be taken for granted.
Why can I only make that happen when I'm a dick to someone?
I want someone who appreciates all the weird things I do...and embraces...
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Is that distasteful? Do I really care?
I want to fall in love.
I want to not be sick. *cough* *cough*
I don't want to be taken for granted.
Why can I only make that happen when I'm a dick to someone?
I want someone who appreciates all the weird things I do...and embraces...
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viciousdemalice:
I want nothing, am nothing, and will always be nothing. Such is the tale of the nameless dark that sat at the computer typing random shit.
kundalini:
I want freedom from the unfullfilled desires that devour me daily. And to eat a big piece of chocolate dessert without getting sick.
*Warning* This post will not leave you with a warm fuzzy*
Do you remember your first crush? The first time you felt your heart jump up into your throat when you saw someone? The sweaty palms? The butterflies? The way they looked as you stared at them across the room?
Do you remember day dreaming about talking to them? About kissing them behind the portable...
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Do you remember your first crush? The first time you felt your heart jump up into your throat when you saw someone? The sweaty palms? The butterflies? The way they looked as you stared at them across the room?
Do you remember day dreaming about talking to them? About kissing them behind the portable...
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timeoftheeclipse:
sigh
i know that experience all too well.
my heart is racing right now just reliving it
god i hated being young
but id do it all again in an instant
i know that experience all too well.
my heart is racing right now just reliving it
god i hated being young
but id do it all again in an instant
viciousdemalice:
Yeah, way late for me, but that brawd is a bitch. If it were me, I would have blown a gasket. I was like that as a kid, tended to lose control, would gone berserk and tore into everyone around me without concern or caring. That really really sucks, I'm sorry, that kind of humiliation is way beyond what I could have dealt with in a sane way, and I would never mention it again, you're a better man than me, that's for damn sure.
Late on this one, but enjoy the waffles!!!
Late on this one, but enjoy the waffles!!!
Hello again from beautiful...bumfucked Michigan!
Synopsis of yesterdays and todays events in no particular order...
Kayaked! Tried to ram canoe. Tipped kayak! water cold. shrinkage. swam to shore...hugged all the girls within 10 feet and got them all wet.
played "chuck, fuck, marry" and found out that universally...the group of 8 ladies considered me too good to chuck, but not good enough to marry. I'm...
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Synopsis of yesterdays and todays events in no particular order...
Kayaked! Tried to ram canoe. Tipped kayak! water cold. shrinkage. swam to shore...hugged all the girls within 10 feet and got them all wet.
played "chuck, fuck, marry" and found out that universally...the group of 8 ladies considered me too good to chuck, but not good enough to marry. I'm...
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t3chmonkey:
Shit. I had a huge response for you but I fucked it up and deleted it. It's alright, i was taking to seriously anyway. Let me sum it up quicker and with less prentesion.
1) I agree with you on the idea that seeking "depth' is a contrived way to experience quality. I was thinking of it more in the reverse, which is in seeking quality, in whatever form, one has a chance to experience more depth from life as a whole. "Realness" is a measurement of quality in experience, don't you think?
2) On the idea of love, I absolutely agree. Shakespeare said it before us and he did it better; 'Love sought is good; but given unsought, is better." You can't try and force things to happen and you have to let it happen. In my experience, if it's quality and if it's perfect, everything happens right anyway, wether you're trying or not.
But if it's not, then I suggest one applies the concept of selectiveness in experiences and not take second best. Too many unhappy couples who don't even make eye contact after a while in this world.
See, I lived with this family where the dad really wanted a pool, both the parents made alright money, but they spent it all on buying tons of crap, so they never really had that much cash available. They went the walmart solution and got one of those vinyl above ground pools where you drop the hose in while you're assembling the plastic ladder. He was so happy the first day he had it, and in his mind you could tell that he was picturing it was the thing he really wanted; probably some far more expensive version with a deck installed around it, stronger walls. I bet he had been sitting on exact picture of how he imagined it for months, if not years.
The pool, over the course of the summer, got gross and the wall began to sag in on itself and it quickly showed why it was so inexpensive. It wasn't even a pool, it was a representation of a pool, and those cost less.
It got to be that he didn't look at it anymore. Couldn't bear to the cheap crappy version of his dream.
He stayed at the office a lot too. Didn't talk to his wife much.
You know?
1) I agree with you on the idea that seeking "depth' is a contrived way to experience quality. I was thinking of it more in the reverse, which is in seeking quality, in whatever form, one has a chance to experience more depth from life as a whole. "Realness" is a measurement of quality in experience, don't you think?
2) On the idea of love, I absolutely agree. Shakespeare said it before us and he did it better; 'Love sought is good; but given unsought, is better." You can't try and force things to happen and you have to let it happen. In my experience, if it's quality and if it's perfect, everything happens right anyway, wether you're trying or not.
But if it's not, then I suggest one applies the concept of selectiveness in experiences and not take second best. Too many unhappy couples who don't even make eye contact after a while in this world.
See, I lived with this family where the dad really wanted a pool, both the parents made alright money, but they spent it all on buying tons of crap, so they never really had that much cash available. They went the walmart solution and got one of those vinyl above ground pools where you drop the hose in while you're assembling the plastic ladder. He was so happy the first day he had it, and in his mind you could tell that he was picturing it was the thing he really wanted; probably some far more expensive version with a deck installed around it, stronger walls. I bet he had been sitting on exact picture of how he imagined it for months, if not years.
The pool, over the course of the summer, got gross and the wall began to sag in on itself and it quickly showed why it was so inexpensive. It wasn't even a pool, it was a representation of a pool, and those cost less.
It got to be that he didn't look at it anymore. Couldn't bear to the cheap crappy version of his dream.
He stayed at the office a lot too. Didn't talk to his wife much.
You know?
viciousdemalice:
Sounds like althouh you are in bumfucknowhere, you're having fun. More fun than I am having, tell you that much for sure. Booze, good. Spin the bottle, good. Getting hit on by someone of the same sex when you don't swing that way, flattering, but unwelcome. Wet girls, you are one lucky fella!!!
Yup, you're having a good time, pat yourself on the back and pray the watter's warmer tomorrow.
Toodles!
Yup, you're having a good time, pat yourself on the back and pray the watter's warmer tomorrow.
Toodles!
HAHA! I am sharing a room with four other guys at this stupid place. Last night I went to sleep...and had the best nights sleep I think I've had in at least a year. And when I sleep well...when I sleep deeply...I snore.
I woke up this morning. One dude left the room...another had a pillow over his head...and the coolest dude I know, Charlie...was...
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I woke up this morning. One dude left the room...another had a pillow over his head...and the coolest dude I know, Charlie...was...
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kundalini:
Oh yeah, and if i knew where you were, I'd probably go break you out and drag you to a few topless bars to "lift your spirits." Hell, it always works for me...
timeoftheeclipse:
tickle tickle snorey head
So I'm in Michigan!
Deep in the woods at some Red Cross leadership training seminar with 150 other 18-30 year olds. I think things are going to get a little crazy here...
Tonight we got to the retreat center and they served us what looked like chicken....But I swear to God it was pink. Bright Pink. NO! FLORESCENT PINK! LIKE PINK CADALLAC PINK!
My conclusion.......
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Deep in the woods at some Red Cross leadership training seminar with 150 other 18-30 year olds. I think things are going to get a little crazy here...
Tonight we got to the retreat center and they served us what looked like chicken....But I swear to God it was pink. Bright Pink. NO! FLORESCENT PINK! LIKE PINK CADALLAC PINK!
My conclusion.......
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kundalini:
You're in Michigan?!?
You poor poor bastard...
You poor poor bastard...
assassin4hire:
Flamengos 
... i'v never had flamengo... 
... i'v never had flamengo... 
nadya:
Holy shit you remember the name of it. You're awesome.
kundalini:
A picture is worth what...? A thousand words...?
Wow. Marine corp. and a failed marriage. You are a complex fellow, aren't you?