Had sex in a public restroom today. . . can cross one thing off my list of things to do someday
holdensolo:
To do TODAY?!?!?!?!, What the hell is on your list for tomorrow???
Rain. Began as a thunderstorm, now is steady gentle rain. Wet dusk green of thick forest leaves becoming evening shadows sheathed in watersound.
I have a crush. I have stopped resisting. I knew it was coming on; i cautioned myself against it. Last night i dreamed of him. Even in my dream, i told him no, i have someone. Then realized it was a dream....
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I have a crush. I have stopped resisting. I knew it was coming on; i cautioned myself against it. Last night i dreamed of him. Even in my dream, i told him no, i have someone. Then realized it was a dream....
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trilobyte:
Meanwhile here it's raining for only like the fourth time this year. ! It's not really even a good rain, just enough to kind of get you wet. I've only heard thunder twice since I've been here, too. Good weather for Coldplay, I think I'd better disturb the neighbors LOL...
Cool on the early birthday gift. Are you the type that saves the present until the actual birthday, or is that sucker open the moment you receive it?
Crushes can be great, though in your situation can spin you around. Who am I kidding, they spin everyone around - that's part of the whole crush thing. Sorry to hear you were in tears and everything, but from what you write it sounds like you're pretty aware of things and not getting lost or anything... hopefully J is as understanding and cool as I suspect he is, and rather that this being a source of inner turmoil it can be a source of random smiles and bonus happiness and all that (there's usually a shortage of both those things in the world)... you can probably bet that the person in question has an idea.
hey, there's a really good theme song for crushes on the first coldplay album... it's one of my favorite tunes, too... called Shiver.
trilo
Cool on the early birthday gift. Are you the type that saves the present until the actual birthday, or is that sucker open the moment you receive it?
Crushes can be great, though in your situation can spin you around. Who am I kidding, they spin everyone around - that's part of the whole crush thing. Sorry to hear you were in tears and everything, but from what you write it sounds like you're pretty aware of things and not getting lost or anything... hopefully J is as understanding and cool as I suspect he is, and rather that this being a source of inner turmoil it can be a source of random smiles and bonus happiness and all that (there's usually a shortage of both those things in the world)... you can probably bet that the person in question has an idea.
hey, there's a really good theme song for crushes on the first coldplay album... it's one of my favorite tunes, too... called Shiver.
trilo
trilobyte:
the picture is me being knocked to the ground by the evil and villainous poopydave... though we were both laughing our asses off... i'll update with the widened out picture... the crime scene unfolds...
trilo
trilo today's attraction: bitter hate rant.
I have stopped understanding what is the point. Again. I also am not able to believe right now that life will ever get better--why should i believe that i will ever live without being broke and in debt (i am not even referring to student loans or mortgage type debt-i mean missed payments, way-behind-schedule debt), that i will ever not...
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I have stopped understanding what is the point. Again. I also am not able to believe right now that life will ever get better--why should i believe that i will ever live without being broke and in debt (i am not even referring to student loans or mortgage type debt-i mean missed payments, way-behind-schedule debt), that i will ever not...
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trilobyte:
re: earlier posts... that's naptastic! 
hmmm... attracted to the hate, interesting concept.
well, i'm always one to vote in favor of a party, but if you've got deadlines crunching then it's almost mandatory attendance. would you be fooling anyone to think otherwise? just take it easy on whatever you partake in, and of course don't forget a diner or having something to eat before you go to sleep so you can recuperate from whatever deviltry you get up to.
and while i do sympathize with where you've been (i have a bit of a fucked up past myself), don't let it make you bitter. in the end you're probably better prepared for the various bumps and shocks life will throw at you (and you know it will), but don't begrudge someone because they didn't have to endure. trust me, i felt that way for a long time too, and it doesn't do anything but make you feel bad about people. and relax... you'll get around the curve, money-wise. may not be until your 30's, but you'll pull it off. and it will be a very sweet victory...
your occupation should also include wicked. you know why.
sleep
trilo-zzz
hmmm... attracted to the hate, interesting concept.
well, i'm always one to vote in favor of a party, but if you've got deadlines crunching then it's almost mandatory attendance. would you be fooling anyone to think otherwise? just take it easy on whatever you partake in, and of course don't forget a diner or having something to eat before you go to sleep so you can recuperate from whatever deviltry you get up to.
and while i do sympathize with where you've been (i have a bit of a fucked up past myself), don't let it make you bitter. in the end you're probably better prepared for the various bumps and shocks life will throw at you (and you know it will), but don't begrudge someone because they didn't have to endure. trust me, i felt that way for a long time too, and it doesn't do anything but make you feel bad about people. and relax... you'll get around the curve, money-wise. may not be until your 30's, but you'll pull it off. and it will be a very sweet victory...
your occupation should also include wicked. you know why.
sleep
trilo-zzz 
damon:
it could always be worse
better now
frustrated
irritable
surly
angry
sick of it all
TIRED.
Should not have gone out Tues nite. have not caught up on sleep yet; have gotton NOTHING done b/c of being so tired.
Just came into my dorm and my RA asked me if i yelled at someone last night. I did not; i asked if i could close my suitemate's door, she said yes, i...
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irritable
surly
angry
sick of it all
TIRED.
Should not have gone out Tues nite. have not caught up on sleep yet; have gotton NOTHING done b/c of being so tired.
Just came into my dorm and my RA asked me if i yelled at someone last night. I did not; i asked if i could close my suitemate's door, she said yes, i...
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melissa2:
i'm with you......sick of it all......
I spend a lot of time paying attention to what other people are doing and whether they are doing it right or not. I am wondering what might happen if i let it go, jut ignored things and people that i think are not right. Bet i'd have all that energy for other things.
Also i hate to be predictable. People who know me expect...
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Also i hate to be predictable. People who know me expect...
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fractal:
changing things about yourself isn't easy - good luck with it.
pyronautica:
Cleaning is very good for the soul.
sorta irritable but only because i didn't get enough sleep last night. Went dancing, got to sleep around 4 am. It was fun but i was sort of hyper because i haven't been there in so long that i was being over-social, trying to connect with all the folks i haven't seen in a while. Started to annoy myself after a while what with running...
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_sarah_:
Sounds like quite a night.
AIMannoysme: but mostly tired. . . i am not writing anymore tonight. . . i will revise and finish on the bus tomorrow
snoopy138: what paper?
AIMannoysme: what paper????
snoopy138: ?
AIMannoysme: dont tell me you already did it :-(
snoopy138: already did what
AIMannoysme: ?? ren?
snoopy138: that;s not due til tuesday next week
AIMannoysme: roflmao are you serious??!?
snoopy138: what paper?
AIMannoysme: what paper????
snoopy138: ?
AIMannoysme: dont tell me you already did it :-(
snoopy138: already did what
AIMannoysme: ?? ren?
snoopy138: that;s not due til tuesday next week
AIMannoysme: roflmao are you serious??!?
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fractal:
i wish that were my situation...
trilobyte:
I think I just realized that I forgot to answer an earlier question. PKD = Philip K. Dick. Author of bucketloads of science fiction. Some of his work has been turned into some really kick-ass movies like Blade Runner, Total Recall, and Minority Report. I got around to starting to read his short stories on my cross-country trip last fall and have pretty much enjoyed all his stuff so far (though it takes some getting used to I think). I just started The Simulacra, which is one of the books that the Wachowski brothers were inspired by when writing The Matrix trilogy.
And then... sleepiness
trilo
And then... sleepiness
trilo hey look, a picture of me.
TodayI took a bus and paid my first month's rent. no one was there, but in the dining room was a notebook with everyone's name and a stack of checks. It made me happy to see that they are so organized and stuff.
Last night J started making out with me while i was on the pc, so i...
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TodayI took a bus and paid my first month's rent. no one was there, but in the dining room was a notebook with everyone's name and a stack of checks. It made me happy to see that they are so organized and stuff.
Last night J started making out with me while i was on the pc, so i...
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_sarah_:
Rats. It's not going to work. 
trilobyte:
woohoo on the profile pic!
congrats on the check business - it's always nice and reassuring to know that the people taking care of that have their shit together and keep track of who's paying and all that. a very good sign.
congrats on the computer fun... my ex-gf and i would occasionally do that sort of thing to each other... starts off kinda annoying then it's 'oh yeah' and then 'what's a computer' lol
i'm all about the pomegranate smoothies right now. seriously. if i could remember where the place was that i was taken to, i'd go get one right now...
thanks on the musical taste... the massive attack is just really blowing me away right now. cool and danceable and arty and sensual and all that...
oh yeah, the glacier was in northern canada, a few hours north and a few thousand feet up from calgary. i think it was called the Athabasca glacier, it's at the edge of the Columbia ice fields... one of the coolest experiences i've ever had...
trilo
congrats on the check business - it's always nice and reassuring to know that the people taking care of that have their shit together and keep track of who's paying and all that. a very good sign.
congrats on the computer fun... my ex-gf and i would occasionally do that sort of thing to each other... starts off kinda annoying then it's 'oh yeah' and then 'what's a computer' lol
i'm all about the pomegranate smoothies right now. seriously. if i could remember where the place was that i was taken to, i'd go get one right now...
thanks on the musical taste... the massive attack is just really blowing me away right now. cool and danceable and arty and sensual and all that...
oh yeah, the glacier was in northern canada, a few hours north and a few thousand feet up from calgary. i think it was called the Athabasca glacier, it's at the edge of the Columbia ice fields... one of the coolest experiences i've ever had...
trilo
Hey - thanks for the most thoughtful, interesting and insightful comment I've ever received on my board thread/s!
Me0w!
Mau Bast