aralia

Now wouldn't it be something to live in a society where sex workers (sex, for that matter) were not looked down upon.

I was thinking the other day how nice it is that everyone in the house i live in (7 people) is sexually active, because a good sex life keeps people happier and more relaxed. That night one of my housemates told me his gf broke up with him. Oh well.

I have been thinking about stripping lately. I don't plan to do it, for a few reasons. One, lap dances--yuck. No thanks. Two--i do not live in a city, and the only place i know close to here is a complete gross dive. I haven't been inside, you can tell it's a dive from the outside. Three: I love dancing, i like with being naked, but i do have a problem with a complete lack of respect. Which seems like a pretty big part os stripping. Four: i don't want men groping me when they put money in my undies or whatnot. Also yuck.

I wonder how much of this would be different if i was single. Monogomany is pretty important to me in this relationship (unlike non-mono. relationships i've been in in the past). I wish i could just strip and dance but without the groping rude parts of it. But i don't think it works that way.

I don't know. I'm pretty conflicted about all this. I would do nude modeling, my photgrapher would love that, and i could get more modeling work that way, but for this whole relationship thing. Grr. I am in a bind, where i feel like there are two things i really want, which are totally opposed to one another: a self-contained, monogomous relationship, and to do nude erotic modeling which could be so fun. So i feel like which ever one i chose, i'd feel like the other was passing me by. This is a VERY typical way for a Gemini to feel about life, i am told.