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aproximation

Home? Closer then when I started. It's just across that river Styx.

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Saturday Jan 22, 2005

Jan 22, 2005
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Im a gettin betta, slowly but surely.
Still angst ridden about seein the conformancy expert on Monday.
Will I let him help me?
What will I be without my colorfull pain?
I used to say "Embrace the sacrifice to bleed the brilliant colors."
Will my new saying be "be happy, buy an SUV and become a sofware engineer"?
I dont want that. I don't want to be a norm, I want to be me, just with more energy and the ability to express myself to people.

On a different note a woman who comes into my work, a womens studies professor at CU, said that she loves how incongruent my personality is from my appearance. The lady that used me for a one night stand says the same. Apparently I dress like an intimidating tough guy, but I am a big teddy bear inside.
I think I'm more like one of the gloomy bears Cerah is so fond of.
I took it as a complement though. smile

I need to learn how to make strings of words other people can add too. I'm to estranged from people me thinks...
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synapse:
the-rapist(s) haven't taken away my personality, yet.... they didn't want to make me conform to any type of standard, unless, it was to belong to the group of the living. Fairly dramatic today I am... Oh, and if only I had somone to rotate me and sponge me down... I could move mountains with my eyelids... mountains!
Jan 23, 2005
wyspurr:
i love the term "conformacy expert"
i work in a coffee shop too...but i still find the time for my addiction. i'm quite odd in that the smell and taste repulse me now, but i still must drink it. when i worked around burgers, i couldn't eat meat.

yes...i most definately need more tat work done.

i'm hoping the sledgehammers and drills they use to break apart the foundation aren't too loud.

by the by...do you have an im?
Jan 23, 2005

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