aproximation

I need to figure out what it is that makes people glaze over when they talk to me. I know a lot of accademics, and I like to cuddle, but I'm not all that fun I think.

My new years resolution is to act on thoes urges I get all the time.

For example (exemplae gratitious e.g.) A friend of my roomate was having his birthday yesterday, and as I was walking by the resturant where he works headding to the bars I though to my self that I should go in and tell the hostess to tell him that a weird looking guy with a blue mohawk wishes him a happy birthday. But I dont really know him...
Perhaps that is why.

Later that night after some people I know hinted very obviously that I should leave them alone, I followed some of these urges, although they were of a more childish nature: Sitting on ledges of three/four story buildings (I am afraid of hights, I sweat just thinking about it) and breaking into construction sights and messing around (not vandalism, just tresspassing).

Oh, and my stupid lip is split cause its dry

so I kiss you with it!


And for all thoes theory sluts, Im working on the idea that connectionism - network theory, game theory, systems theory all rolled into one - is the next step after postmodernism.
Thoughts please!

Oh, and I am working on a new painting, a sculpture idea for an open call in newyork, an interface for an old audio sculpture, grad school applications, among other things. I just gotta keep from getting sad so I can do all that.




Last question: should I call a shrink? A person I know gave me a number of someone who may do sliding scale but I've never been able to dial the number. Perhaps cause it seems like something I should be able to do on my own. Plus spending money on non art is hard for me... perhaps if I stop drinking it will ballance out...

Anyway, what do you think?
(sorry for the long post )