aproximation

Last night I was really bad. I didnt go to sleep all night becasue I couldn't despite wanting too.
I had to find out what It was like, and it was fun till the night got that sticky yellow taint, but wouldnt stop. I was mister asshole all day today. Im gonna sleep for s many hours as I can.

Itinary:
Feel very sad.
Be an asshole at work.
After work I met a friend
Got directly to bar, do not pass go
Drink many sapphire/tonics and Jager shots
Achieve Hard Drug
Spend all night talking codshit to complete strangers, smoking (I dont smoke) and putting ciggerettes out on my arms, and walking all over cold ass boulder.
Stay up all night as my racing heart and scrampled mind kept shaking me up.
Go to work and be an asshole to everyone.
Feel very sad

I am starting to think more seriously about a shrink. Its funny though as i just need a friend, but I cannot forem "attachements" with people as psychologists call them. I need to have a friend in order to help me to make friends.
Catch 22.

Ah, the hightlife...