I stand alone
Burned every bridge over these troubled waters
No longer hiding from my personality disorder
A stronger tide is coming,
I've been running
trying to function fine
with out my mind
climbing out this fucking corner
I was born a thorn away from the rotten petals
A forgotten rebel
crafted in the absence
of heaven's heavy hands to develop
an evident level of benevolence
so it's probably better I sold my soul to the devil
This is a message to anyone I met that thinks they know me
Don't pretend to understand none of the issues that I'm holding
I was in a rush to grow up, look Mom no cuts
Just a stomach of disgust
And the fear that I might go nuts
this year
If I don't slow up I'll see you on the way
One day This shit'll kill me, but I guess that its OK
I've lost all faith
in a world so full of hate
and I don't fuckin love music I just use it to escape
But wait
I'm cought between wantin to punch in some one in the face
And putting a bullet in my head to leave the human race
Everything takes its toll but there's no tolls I can take
I haven't yet found a good reason to be awake
Introducin the corroded bumps I hide behind my smile.
I'm angry at the universe for the way she treats me now
She keeps me down
Stealin all my energy
Concealin my identity
Not dealing with my tendencies
I peel the skin and then I squeze
A real in printed hand cuz he's
Not human in this century
I'm kneelin to this entity
who built this penitentiary
As filthy as a centipede
And guiltless in a sense cuz he
was willing to just let me bleed
While I wore a game face
IN TEN YEARS DONT CHECK FOR ME
ILL BE IN THE SAME PLACE
This planet is just an over populated mental hospital
each zombie walks around constutes another obsticle
SO HERE IT IS
IM FINALY COMIN OUT MY SHELL
ALL 21 YEARS OF MY LIFE IVE BEEN IN CONFLICT WITH MY SELF
IM INSUCURE ABOUT EVERY FACET OF MY EXISTENCE
FROM MY ADDICTIONS TO THE CONDITIONS IM FORCED TO LIVE IN
who you kidding?
I suffer from excess anxiety
A PRODUCT OF POLLUTION IN AMERICAN SOCIETY
Stare into my eyes and see the hell that burns inside my mind
And I no longer have an ego I can hide behind
But I've been fine disregardin my insanity
Every form of art isolates us from humanity
But its provoked against bein force fed
so FUCK education for a decade and three years of headaches from my peers
cuz now I realize I could a learned more on my own
They taught me how to know everything except my would
Witch is everything I need to grow
everything that keeps me whole
Everything that ever meant anything to Rambo so
I leave with golden hopes to
Rip the leash that holds my focus
But the fact remains the same
I'm still bound by chains
it doesn't matter if your chains are ten feet or a hundred feet
The fact remains the same
Your still bound by chains
Some people say iv changes and its harder to relate to me
GOOD! I never liked you
Our friendship was make believe
I'm
Peelin the mask back and
Revealin the facts that's been
Filing my organs
Drillin short distorted portions
of morbid acid keeps the torture unfortunately crafted
interests to orbit my portrait
and inflict my image with disorder
The minutes get shorter,
the walls start to close in
Feels like the brain is hanging on by one clothes pin
I've hidden in the darkness for too long
I make it look alright but on the inside its so wrong
I WANT LIFE TO CHANGE BUT I DONT KNO IF IT CAN
FOR A MAN OR MACHINE OR WHATEVER THE FUCK I AM
I stand alone
Burned every bridge over the troubled waters
No longer hiding from my personality disorder
You wanna die in my life?
Then come and sit in madness' favorite little corner
Cuz even shadows have shadows
And my secrets are eating me eagerly I scream my dreams away bit they keep on defeatin me
Even shadows have shadows
Welcome to the dusty conscious of an actor who murdered his childhood to stop the audiences laughter
Even shadows have shadows
How am I to break free from my fears when I don't like what I she and I can't feel what I hear
Even shadows have shadows
so don't judge my book by its cover cuz my stories just as FUCKED UP as any others ....
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