Saturday May 18, 2013

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Done recording for the night. Got 4 more songs and vocals on 1 and the CD done Shits gonna be too dope will have the link for the free download as soon as its done!
apezilla:

It's kind like that shit that gets stuck in my mind, a pseudo-drug with with no side effects except mental decline. For my tension purposes I lighten up the sandlewood candle, it seems the easiest shit is the stuff I cant handle. What the fuck man? I silenced a call from a good old friend, I say shit I mean and do nothing cuz it's all just pretend. I'm frustrated with life just in general, cuz now I sleep all day and wait for my hell.

I was infatuated by all the lights in the sky Nothing comes out right the first fucking time cuz I deafened my ears to block out the sound A blankness fills all around now

I'm not in the mood to look at bright things I'm acting like an ass controlled by fucking strings Maybe if I werent acting like a faggot punk Id be useful in a way. This isnt me this isnt me this isnt me Twisted throughout my own version of hell I cant get outta tha grip of this fucking shell I keep saying shit way too many times for no reasonable explanation this is shit this is shit this is shit

It's seeming like the sound of pain is a good idea and I yeah I know I'm sounding kinda vain Cuz this bullshit is all just a game, my whole life is lame, Ive been rewriting shit that all sounds the same I've been cutting off my friends and sleeping til ten. This is shit this is shit its just a rerun again. Theres a solid line that borders my brain that disdains good reasoning and makes me insane! Ha

I was born with no reasoning mind And Ive got no intentions of every trying to find The shit Ive been taught is now lost in space Give me a cheese grater and peel the flesh off my face haha Ive got no motivation to make my bed in the morning get my ass up at 7 make my life not so boring. Fuck that shit Ill stay up for 6 six days and summon the clouds to pour some fucking shit on me.

Tuesday May 14, 2013

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Tuesday May 14, 2013

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I stand alone
Burned every bridge over these troubled waters
No longer hiding from my personality disorder
A stronger tide is coming,
I've been running
trying to function fine
with out my mind
climbing out this fucking corner

I was born a thorn away from the rotten petals
A forgotten rebel
crafted in the absence
of heaven's heavy hands to develop
an evident...
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Tuesday May 14, 2013

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On this I stand Two sets of footprints placed ahead of the dirt softened from tear drops And overlooking the earth as the son of the moon protected by a forcefield of pure thought.. On this I stand A rally of unemployed disgrunt of words on for long journeys to somewhere somewhere that only causes me pain as I strain my soul crammin into rightness...
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Tuesday May 14, 2013

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It starts out with a question. How much of it is real? The skepticism sets in, and lessens your appeal Next, you study conspiracy, develop some theories And become extra wary of all your previous learned material Your tolerence for stupidity degrades Most of your friends seem to be trapped in the maze You narrow your associates down to the few you can stand And...
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apezilla:

The dive part 2

Take a deep breath There's nothing to be afraid of What you just did was fall to the depths of existence The place your mind keeps you away from by it's own process of building models for understanding This is NOT insanity This is, in fact, the ultimate reality The union you've achieved is only possible with thoughts no more You never fall if you never fight

You found yourself fall into madness The best thing you ever did was let go [x2]

I found myself fall into madness The best thing I ever did was let go [x2]

See, life is a play that we're always acting out Without ever seeing it from the writer's or audience's point of view When we reach infinity, we become the writers and the actors and the audience at the exact same time

So here you are And now you understand You always were here That's why you always ran But you can only run away for so long Before you catch up with yourself and become part of the song I'd like to welcome you to the heaven you've created I tell the truth this is the wisdom of the ancients Holding on to something contradicts our being, so fly free Maybe I had to go crazy to get where I am I felt myself slipping away and I let myself fall Gotta lose your mind before you find it And when you finally find it you find out you never lost it at all There's a natural flow That's attached to your soul It don't ask you to go It just gradually pulls It's always now and you're never not you So follow yourself 'cause if nothing else, your existence is true

Have you ever felt yourself slipping away? I am, I mean, I was slipping away But no matter what I am I'm me And I know me so I'm ok

Have you ever felt yourself slipping away? You are, I mean, you were slipping away But no matter what you are you're you And you know you so you're ok

I'm not a poet or a communist, a comet, or a star You're not a genius or a prophet you just are I'm not insane 'cause I have no need for my sanity It's just another chain that keeps me from reality Reality is mine; to play with and mold The best thing I ever did was let go So let go of the models Transcend the physical mind And peacefully become part of the whole The walls came tumbling down But this time it was for keeps I've been running around Looking for my feet Now they're part of the ground And make the ground complete Live in the now and forever be at peace Live in the now, don't stray away from the cycle I'm one with the universe One with the life flow When you know that that which is below is above The fear you once had will become love (feel the love)

Have you ever felt yourself slipping away? I am, I mean, I was slipping away But no matter what I am I'm me And I know me so I'm ok

Have you ever felt yourself slipping away? You are, I mean, you were slipping away But no matter what you are you're you And you know you so you're ok

It starts out with a question: How much of it is real? Now all is irrelevant outside of this ordeal Don't worry about explainin' it There ain't no human language That can actually describe exactly how you feel Now I see clear through external distractions Piece by piece it comes together So I laugh and I smile In the beginning it was deranged But I guess all things come to pass, after awhile If madness could have a picture face how would it look? Like step one to becoming the contents of your own book Right where you are right now is where you're gonna stay And as long as you're always moving with yourself You'll never slip away...

Tuesday May 14, 2013

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Happy mothers day

I never knew my mom, once I was born she was dead She never wanted me. At least that's what my dad said He said she was polluted, ignorant, uncivilized And that was roughly the outline of what he beat into my head I grew up in a house with more rooms than I could count No siblings, just strangers always...
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apezilla:

Days turn into years. "A" students turn into dropouts Seeing the world from a creative angle turns into seeing it from a couch Orgasms become lifetimes. Bong hits turn into white lines A face becomes a dartboard and cardboard becomes a house Boys turn into men. Enemies become your friends Losing turns into winning and the beginning becomes the end Words turn into magic. Rewind becomes a habit Rabbits become vultures and cultures become trends A party becomes a funeral. Sunlight turns into cancer The rain turns beautiful. An unusual question becomes an answer Happiness becomes a cataract. A sip turns into a six-pack And Earth turns into Mars as my album becomes a standard A hero becomes a statistic. A lost soul enlisted The potholes are lifted as the hot coals leave you blistered A sickness becomes a teardrop. A cup of coffee becomes a long day Your best friend's guidance becomes the wrong way As the song plays my voice becomes the past, present, and future Transportation becomes pollution as humans become computers Time becomes space. Minds become waste And a person becomes less interested when a mic becomes an instrument An age turns into a nightmare. Love becomes hate The nine becomes a zero and every country becomes one state All you thought you knew was just a foolish assumption Yes, everything is something. But something is nothing

Monday May 06, 2013

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apezilla:

And on a side note my darlin rat bike is two steps away from mad maxim it down the road! Fuuuuuuck yeeeeees

Thursday Apr 18, 2013

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HEY YOU! add me.about to check this out
necra:

"Not into: weak shit like roller bladin"
YES.