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I should be packing right now but I just can't be bothered.

I'm tired and stressed and sad. I need love.

I should get to see my Ryan next week. It's been way too fucking long. Way. He's one of the few people in my life that is truly always just a phone call away, and yet we almost never see each other. He's also the last person outside of my family that I can say "I love you" to and mean it.

Once upon a time I had a bunch of friends I could say that to. Now we've all drifted apart, and I'm sitting in my half-packed apartment in Colorado missing all of them. If it weren't for Eponine, I'd have no good friends here at all, and that puts a lot of pressure on her!

Most of the time, I like being alone. Right now I just want someone to curl up on the couch with.