Blah blah... out of cigarettes once again. I just smoked my last one. It's amazing what a big part of this journal I devote to complaining about my lack of cigarettes/money. It wasn't a problem until recently. I gotta start having enough money for cartons. Anyways... Katy and I took a bunch of pictures today so I will be uploading soon... 
There's a really cool picture of me and Haas, we're SO Sid and Nancy. ::cringes:: Nancy's voice in that movie is so annoying. I bet the REAL Nancy wasn't THAT annoying.
Blah blah... ::sings:: I wanna be JACKIE O'NASSIS... ::sigh:: I want those glasses back. You'll see, soon enough.
I've just pretty much stopped taking all my medication. Not because I don't think I need it, God knows I do. Part of it's laziness, and part of it is just that once I miss a few days, I just don't feel like taking it anymore. I guess it's just the lack of wanting to be better. I hate myself so much now, I can't tell you how much I've changed and how horrible I feel.
I wanted to go to the animal shelter today but I can't because I don't have a fucking way to get home. ::sigh::
There's a really cool picture of me and Haas, we're SO Sid and Nancy. ::cringes:: Nancy's voice in that movie is so annoying. I bet the REAL Nancy wasn't THAT annoying.
Blah blah... ::sings:: I wanna be JACKIE O'NASSIS... ::sigh:: I want those glasses back. You'll see, soon enough.
I've just pretty much stopped taking all my medication. Not because I don't think I need it, God knows I do. Part of it's laziness, and part of it is just that once I miss a few days, I just don't feel like taking it anymore. I guess it's just the lack of wanting to be better. I hate myself so much now, I can't tell you how much I've changed and how horrible I feel.
I wanted to go to the animal shelter today but I can't because I don't have a fucking way to get home. ::sigh::
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anywayyouneedme:
Not dangerous, I make informed decisions. Example: If I were to attempt suicide (knowing in advance that I always fail) I could more accurately assess my life if I were... shit... I guess I'm better on my medicine. Paxil for depression and anxiety, Concerta and Ritalin for ADD and to keep me awake, and Seroquel for sleep. Yes, I'm useless either way, now that you mention it. I'm reminded all too often that I'm alive.
xtx:
I'm on Adderall & Strattera for ADHD. And I still think you're cute, either way. New profile pic up now I see as well- still attractive; call this the 'angry' version.