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Monday Nov 26, 2007

Nov 26, 2007
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Knowledge is power, so I've chosen to read.

It's interesting when I actually read a book. Through the duration and short while thereafter I am altered. My personality bends and conforms to the tone of the book. I often become a much different person taking actions I normally wouldn't. Each book gives me the opportunity to temporarily stamp out my personality and replace it, often for the better.

"Change Yourself in 3 Pages!"

I dream sometimes...when the nightmares are away. I dream of a girl.
It's so tangible, so intangible, a flurry of thought swooshing in my head. I forget with the help of a friend why I dream...I forget so I can remain in doubt & disbelief.

I can't sing loud enough to drown the screaming cries of necessity. I try to laugh it off and play like it was never meant to be. The thing is with destiny there is no hiding from inevitability.

I am just not ready? It seems trivial new tricks for old problems and this time it seems to not work. 1,2,3,4 how many licks does it take to reach the bottom of a well?

It's growing up, I can't stop it. To die an old wrinkly fart, thinking on my death bed "what more is there to think?"
I know what is right and what is wrong and it is not that hard to figure out. Do what I know I should do and never what I "want" because what I "want" is never what I need.

It is modern life for me!
First: a stable job you continually attend every day without being fired or quitting. While you keep telling yourself the money is worth it, the promotion is coming and the more money the better, right?
Second: owning furniture that is not "free" or stolen. Maybe even from a fancy catalog
Third: A steady relationship despite the differences and firm belief in incompatibility. Obsessing for attention that you know is false but willing to accept in the hopes that you can tolerate it. Beaten into submission
Fourth: A Family with said incompatible person.
Fifth: Ever draining guilt & pride to stay for the children
The 5 steps to modern life misery.

I think I'll pass my parents decisions and stick to suicide.

The birth of an exuctioner or the will to act alone. Father to the son or father to no one?
My Choice or yours?

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