Fuck that last blog, I'm frustrated. To much has been going on and not enough have I been paying attention too.
I want so bad to want nothing but it doesn't help, my mood is everything. I can't fix attitude I can only calm myself into apathy, which I do love so dearly.
fuck this shit. I Hate not being able.. incomplete frustration grrr.
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There is the dream world and there is reality. However both bleed into each other.
Have you ever chased a dream into actuality? Has something real become just a dream?
Is potential the same as real? I am just a mass of atoms that before birth was nothing. Now I am a living human being and when I die I will become what I was... Read More
*singing*
Who wants friends, everyone wants friends, but sometimes your friends are dead.
So you make new friends and you eat the meals your fed, because sometimes your friends are dead.
And things continue on, as if it didn't matter, that this tragedy isn't stoping, anything.
Lets remember how far we've come while we've been alive.
We're not the first to know pain, we won't... Read More
What we desire to be is not what we become; instead it is desire that becomes us and desire is a double edge sword. If we achieve our goals do we stop and say "Did it! Now I can live my life" or do we push forward to greater heights? If we continue to fail to achieve our goals do we proclaim "I'll try harder... Read More
You can't give someone the answers they wont appreciate it. Its like ruining the surprise on christmas morning. Sure you wanna know but you don't want someone else telling you what you got.
Why do we ask so many questions? Why can't we just be happy not knowing anything? Why do we want to know anything? Is this the foundation for purpose?
thank you for the comment. it was beautiful and grounded me
i been trying to nab some nude modeling gigs. but alas i am in cali-pornia in the HEART of the porn industry and peopel around here and just plain ass shady.
but i am trying. im scrambling. i got 2 weeks. i WILL pull through.
i know it.
Sincerity is like a dream. It comes often and truthful yet unrealistically. I keep it imagined yet it always eludes to be true. It seems a vision is as good as we can do. How can you lie when life is imagined. What have you imagined can you imagine how to imagine, it's the key to happiness.
I choked to death last night and awoke... Read More
Pursuit is the failure of recognition. To see things as they were no longer gathers voice. I sentence myself to light awakenings. I hear it has been empty inside for too long. To bring the walls light to see with my own eyes, that the walls were the only decoration I needed.
Asleep in this dream it blossoms into everything. This universe means so much,... Read More
Today today oh todaya. I am goin toa savea somebody througha the powera Jehesus Christa.
Praisa the Lord! We are buta serpents serving in his divina well. CAN I GET A ABE LINCOLN IN THE BASKET AND THE LORDA WILL STRIKA YOU DOWN IF ITSA PENNY!
My dream last night was one of the deepest I've ever had. I was analyzing my dream while I dreamed two different dreams simultaneously. I was there with her the girl of my dreams but she was different. I realized I had fallen in love with a fantasy, something that couldn't be. The reality was severely flawed and I didn't understand what went wrong. I... Read More
