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oh, my friend it was so bad for so long.

when it was finally over i moved back to calgary and sat alone in the dark for months. i did not think of sex beyond extreme gratitude i would never have it with him again.

and then it passed and sex is pretty much all i have thought about since. maybe it is just my male aspect developing.

a break? tell me more about that.

way to go. sometimes it's good to talk to the people you're thinking about....reminds you of their reality versus your idea of them.

excellent.

i hope you are okay!?

i will try - so far i haven't mastered it. Thank you so much for being so sweet

And if I were in town I'd say let's go get tacos, I need to get the REAL thing you know.

Ahhh see you there then, someday. Well. If you haven't moved of course. I hope your night was OK. It's 12 pm here, I'm eating a vegetable burger someone made me and I fell asleep like... 5. My dog has been slacking at my feet all morning too, perfect little feet warmer. It's brrrr here, someone said yesterday that it was sunny but "cold" in LA. Yeah, sure. I bet it's SOOO cold

I wish I could shut your brain off for a while. Like, get som fucking rest from all of this. Just for a little while or your mind will go crazy. You do need to do things you find really great, ok, even if you have to work alot, you can't just work, or think of her and this and that. If you're so fucked up about this as it seems, I maybe think talking to her would have helped IF SHE WASNT SO CRAZY cause from what you've said it doesn't really seem to help even a little to talk to her about it, question her and what not. That's really annoying.

this, too, will pass.

the opposite of love isn't hate. it's indifference. that wounds more than any lover's quarrel.

No worries man. Mine was the worst dumping ever - a perfectly wonderful girl, no cheating, and I had no idea she was getting cold feet. I'll go through the sordid details over drinks sometime.

It's perfectly normal to be wrecked right now, especially if you knew it wasn't destined to be. Things are gonna be a lot more alright than you think they will. That list of accomplishments you posted the other day. Remember, that's not the work of a complete idiot, they weren't handed to you on a plate. You may question yourself more at the moment, but it doesn't change the answer...

~Trilo~

Hm... I'm not sure, you might have?

Yeah, seems like everyone on my friendslist on here need a big make out party. It just doesn't work like that. Damn.

How are you doing today?

you're welcome.

your update indicates you have moved on to another emotion. it's a roller coaster.

theres going to be someone else out there for you...that lonelyness wont last....and eventually youll be able to laugh at it....cause you will have the perfect person for you.

Stay Strong.

isn't that ironic?!

As the cliche goes...use it for your art.

looking at your book choices, i notice you're a Moore fan. awesome. i liked the one about the pilot the best. forgot the long title though.

good for you!!

i love that you posted that at 11:11, it is my favorite time of day. remember all that is positive in your life.