anna

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see, ill bet you thought my head was just full of vulgarity, bad jokes, and dreams of gay sex. well, there are some nice things in there, too. i would even go as far to say adorable things. my favorite part is the 'bunny!'.

i just spent about three hours playing civ, and my laptop died. i didnt save it at all. why did i do that?? i always do intermittent saves. im so disappointed with myself.

so its been almost three weeks since my last update. ive tried to come up with a good excuse but the fact is that ive just been lazy. and ive been spending a lot of time writing outlandish e-mails. (which i enjoyed every minute of; i am certainly not complaining.) this is my last day of spring break and then its back to the same exhausting routine, so ive been cherishing these past 2 weeks. ive been eating and sleeping a lot.

i wrote that in a notebook i just found in my room. i believe its from an english class i attempted to take two years ago. the back cover looks like this:



not surprisingly, there are less than 10 pages of the notebook actually pertaining to the class; an argument in favor of mark twains view on original thought. i spent most of the class eating fritos and drawing the other people in the room. this required long periods of staring, and usually made them uncomfortable, which was fun. i never even bought the textbooks. i dont do homework, either. i just showed up for class. sometimes. god i fucking hate school.

yesterday i had sex with my ex. (hey! that rhymes!) it may have been a bad decision, im not sure yet. it probably was. but it was really good. and i really needed it. the sex, that is, not the bad decision. ive plenty of those.

speaking of which, i didnt go to work yesterday. i might be fired. i kind of hope i am. ive realized that every time i start hating a job, i start to do things that may get me fired. and i genuinely do not care.

i woke up around six this morning and ate: (1) bagel with cream cheese, (6) cheese sticks with ranch dressing, (1) bowl / cream of wheat with brown sugar, and (2) cans of root beer. it was soooooo good. yesterday i had a serious craving for pizza. i dont get pizza a lot because its a 40 minute round trip to go pick it up, and its usually just not worth it. but i wanted it BAD. so i got a large, and ate nearly all of it. extra cheese, pepperoni, mushrooms, and bacon. i was so sick. then i ate the rest of it 8 hours later. pizza is good!

they are way cute, trust me.
usually the pictures i post do not do my skin justice. i am really pale and have a lot of freckles. that one seems to be pretty accurate on the skin tone, though. ive decided to not try to get tan this summer, either. im going to just embrace my fair skin and wear sunblock. im going to get cancer from the cigarettes anyways, i really dont need melanoma to throw into the mix.

we are going to skylab again this coming monday to see marissa nadler. i am sooooo excited about this one. go to the 'listening booth' and check out her mp3s, shes pretty amazing. skylab is incredible because its just this apartment on the top floor of a building in downtown columbus. its owned by a bunch of artists, and open up their home for anything art or music related. there are usually less than 20 people there, its such an intimate atmosphere.

there is an absolutely horrid smell coming from my room. really, its vile. i cant figure out what it is, though. sort of like a mixture of cat pee and sweaty boys. i would even go as far to say sweaty testicles. sometimes i wonder if guys know just how bad their balls smell. im sure there are some men who take care of their testicle stench, and i dont mean to insult them. but ive encountered some seriously smelly balls, to the point that its difficult to breathe when youre giving the ol' bj. well anyways - my room. its possible its cat pee, but there havent been many sweaty boys in my room lately. unfortunately. i would like for there to be more sweaty boys in my room.

here are some words that i like:

so, i got new glasses. they arent real glasses, which i desperately need. they are reading glasses, which i dont really need. but they are cute so i wear them anyways.

they seem to have the power to induce unflattering facial expressions, which can be witnessed here:



here:



and finally, here:



wait, wait - ok, check out those earrings. arent they ab fab? BLING BLING. theyre erins, but i dont think shes going to see them again. i think i love them because they are sooooo wrong for me. ah christ, they are great.

i heard another guy at work wanted to ask me out, so i told everyone im a lesbian. i did this at my last job, too. sometimes it just has to be done. and its really only a 50-60% lie. the upside is that i can just work in peace and not be bothered by stupid boys. the downside is that it becomes gossip; the men all talk about how i have sex with girls, and the women think i want to fuck them if i make eye contact. i really should just start being a vicious bitch so no one will ever want to ask me out.

this entry wasnt very entertaining, and i am sorry for that. things arent bad, but they arent great, either. i have been grappling with the possibility of being completely and utterly alone for the rest of my life, and that tends to drain ones sense of humor.

i can only hope that this picture of my ass will win your love back.



id say my mouth hangs open about 75% of the time. the only time its closed is when im making an effort to keep it that way. its makes me look mentally retarded, and its kind of gross.



so that picture is pretty accurate.


i may add to this later, if im in a cheery mood
until next time, chillins

*muah*