anissa

Wow, really glad everything worked out for you. It sounds great, hope everything contiunes to be going well. As for me I've learned something from you, It's not worth it being angry.

Last week, I buried my old wedding ring along wth all that shit. It's just not worth it, I wasn't getting any better becasue I was wasting so much time on being angry and hateful and vengeful. All that was happening was it was all coming back on me, and I was losing myself being so angry.

As for me in a kind of "what now" phase. Trying to keep up hope that I will meet someone else

wow, I take this as things are going well for you then???? well if thats the case that I hope it keeps up for ya.

No not crazy at all... that sounds like a plan. I just don't know how to go about it. We are being really friendly and a little flirty. I invited him over to draw and do art shit with me. I'm not about to just fucking molest him even though im so frustrated I want to. I hope offering to hang out isn't making it seem like im doormat. But, taking him back hasn't even come up yet. We're just so pleased that we're talking again.
My plan was to not have a plan and just hang out and enjoy each others company without labels or some sort of structured relationship.

And BOY HOWDY revenge and vindication is sweeeeeet.
Everything I hoped would happen, happend.
Unbeliveable...

so you agree then that it fells reat when they come crawling back. Man I hope that day comes for me, just for the feeling that I was right all along if nothing else. Of course if what I had prophesized at the beginning of all this happens, then I won't care by the time it does.
Yeah shit like this is the kinda shit it's usually best not to plan out and make rules on, just go with your heart, and say fuck it!

Quote of the day:
"What the fuck, fuck shit up!"
Chuck Dukowski

sorry about that, I'd talk to ya but you're all the way in fucking detroit

I feel your pain!

wow, well hope this is what I think, you wanted him back still right???? cause as a guy reading this combined with when he texted you the other day I think he might possibly be regretting breaking up and trying to weasel his way back in

thanks for the good words, hope your situation turns out for the best, if he does ask to come back then just follow your heart and you'll never have any regrets, Every time I've ever done what I felt was right for me at the time, whether it worked out in the end or not, I don't regret any of those decisions

sounds odd

i love being high.

hmmmm.....curious, things could be already spinning towards that big reconciliation you've been hoping for, I'll keep my hopes up for you...

love,
The Knutz

that is odd, when I called to tell my troop thta I supervise what happened he said his best freinds brother also hung himself last night, muct be something in the air

don't, I totally hate my ex, so I guess its different cause I'm not trying to/hoping to get back with my ex, but I totally hate being around the ex, or anyone associated with her for that matter, The only exception to this is when its in an in your face/ hahaha fuck you kinda way.

Amen to that. It's one of the reasons I can keep getting up when I get knocked down.

"YOU GOTTA MOVE!!!!"
my high school wrestling coach, one of those obscure quotes I always find myself saying to myself

Hey, been there, if you've aready asked him to come back and he said no then just forget about him and move on with your life. If you haven't asked him to come back yet then do, because you won't be able to satisfy that urge any other way. If he says no, which it sounds like he probably would, then I'm not going to lie to you, it'll hurt worse again for a week or so, but once you get past that, then you can start fresh. Once you decide to move on then don't talk to him and don't see him no matter what. The only time I see or talk to my ex is about the kids and onl what I absolutely have to say. Trust me on this. Reading your journal today is like reading my own mind 6 months ago, it does get easier with time, but it'll be realy hard for a while, you just gotta push on through. Always hear if ya need an ear. I went through the exact same shit so trust me on this. this is why life sucks!!!