Am I a mad stalker? I got talking to this woman online who lives at the other end of the country and we get on so well. We have both said we really like each other and want to meet up. The other day I had a date with a local woman and it was really nice. We kissed and it all felt lovely, but...
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tattoo_kitten:
Ahh hun it sounds like you're in love, its so adorable and its often said that love makes us crazy!
Okay, so I had a massive fight with my best mate, and now we are not talking. The thing is, I am really not as upset as I probably should be. Basically, long story short, we had a date, I didn't fancy her because she is a big lass (shallow I know but you can't force the worm to stir) and we ended up best...
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varite:
As rough as it may be sometimes, the truth is always the best thing.. It wasn't helping either of you to "pretend" and while it was nice to be friends, if it was more than that for her, it would have been worse/harder in the long run.. I dated a guy for 7 months and there just wasn't that connection between us and I knew it for quite a while but I hung around hoping that things might change, but they never did.. It's understandable that you would feel lighter after everything getting out in the open, because secrets and unspoken truths have a way of weighing us down.. She just wasn't the one for you, and that's that.. Sucks that you may not be able to be friends after this, but at least the truth is out there.. 
Food is fucking weird.
At least, I hope its food. I haven't been eating properly the last few days. Mainly due to bone idleness and a total lack of impetus to go and do some grocery shopping. I have no food in the house. Literally nothing, and I am spending a lot of my time starving. Its not that I can't afford it. One student...
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At least, I hope its food. I haven't been eating properly the last few days. Mainly due to bone idleness and a total lack of impetus to go and do some grocery shopping. I have no food in the house. Literally nothing, and I am spending a lot of my time starving. Its not that I can't afford it. One student...
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Just a quick one. My legs are killing me. My hips are giving me the worst pain they have in a long time. I have had to stop driving and I am in pain almost every second I am awake. The ibuprofen and cocodamol just about stop me screaming my head off and crying from the sheer frustration that my body hurts every minute that...
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padre:
You sound like when you get involved with a person you take it very seriously. Almost to the point that when you are serious with a person you're in it for the "long haul" Has anything changed in the last few days?
anguz:
We're back to being friends now, and until I sort out my issues that is the best I can ask for because I can't keep messing her around with this on again off again approach. I will get there. The counciling is really helping and I have I have had some real breakthroughs recently, but I am not ready for something serious yet. I just can't handle it. I think I do see it as the "long haul" and that's why I freak. I need to get to a place where it can be one day at a time and enjoy or what it is right there rather than worry what it will be in ten days, weeks, months or years.
Okay slightly sappy on here and might not be the sorta thing that people wanna read out and probably don't agree with. I was watching some clips from the Sister Act movies today on YouTube. I know they're not the greatest movies ever but I love them for the music. The songs in those films just do something to me and I can't watch them...
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the_libertine:
very true and very beautiful, Anguz... man, it's been too long since we've spoken but I'm glad I came to check you out today. your post touched me in just the right way.
be well, my friend, but do not be a stranger.
O.
be well, my friend, but do not be a stranger.
O.
fnerk:
I only feel that way about instrumental music. Everything else, i'm too busy listening to what the lyrics and story are behind the song to let it affect me. But there is no God, the closest we get to him is Rolf Harris.
Can you tell what it is yet?
Can you tell what it is yet?
I feel sad today. Slowly but surely I am losing my friends. I have been trying to deny and trying to make it work but the divide between me and them is getting bigger and harder to ignore all the time. I don't know if it is down to age, or lack of common ground or just that we are all changing but it is...
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bow:
Friends come and go, but iv found the real ones always come back
Friends come and go, but iv found the real ones always come back
miserabelle:
I rip into my friends sometimes... but it's not always appropriate - there are definitely friends who I'm more childish/rude to than others. I think it's a case of knowing how far you can go with someone, if one of my friends were offended by it I'd definitely stop.
Also: I think that I think in a posh-ish but quite bland English accent, when actually I am from the midlands... maybe my subconscious is trying to get me to 'better' myself? ^-^ xx
Also: I think that I think in a posh-ish but quite bland English accent, when actually I am from the midlands... maybe my subconscious is trying to get me to 'better' myself? ^-^ xx
The Activities Blog
I bought myself an old xbox this week. Not a 360, the original black brick, only I got one of the semi-translucent green ones, which was nice. The main reason I mention this is I bought a bunch of old games and I have had more fun on that thing in the last three days then I had since I first bought...
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I bought myself an old xbox this week. Not a 360, the original black brick, only I got one of the semi-translucent green ones, which was nice. The main reason I mention this is I bought a bunch of old games and I have had more fun on that thing in the last three days then I had since I first bought...
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THE DRUNK BLOG NUMBER ONE
Have you ever had one of those nights where you are halfway home and you really need to piss? The weird thing is, it doesn't matter how far from home you are, or how bad you need it, you ALWAYA make it just in the nick of time. I think it's a psychological thing but it happens all the same....
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Have you ever had one of those nights where you are halfway home and you really need to piss? The weird thing is, it doesn't matter how far from home you are, or how bad you need it, you ALWAYA make it just in the nick of time. I think it's a psychological thing but it happens all the same....
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the_libertine:
What's a "hash" key?
Yay for drunken blogs! I hope you had a good time, my friend.
xx
Yay for drunken blogs! I hope you had a good time, my friend.
xx
Okay, being sick AND having a bad back is officially the shittest thing ever, Everyone time I cough or sneeze it feels like someone is trying to rip me in half and thats not as fun as you might think. I kinda know what Jazz felt like (if you get this reference, love ya). On another note, i had a really good day yesterday then...
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the_libertine:
Ew... you made a NEW Transformers movie reference! Now I don't know if we can sleep together 
Anguz, the last thing you are is an asshole. Listen to DelaneyJae. She knows what she's talking about.
And as for your "mate" saying that you've no right to be depressed because you're healthy (good), good looking (god, yes), have great mates (well, yes but...), and have a good standard of living (what, well off people can't be sad?) doesn't mean that you can't be depressed. Often, depression isn't related to your actual surroundings. Often it's related to a chemical imbalance or to something that you haven't addressed in your life. Just because everthing "on paper" looks good does not mean that there's nothing wrong OFF the page, you know?
And I don't mean this to sound like your mates are not good mates. If you chose them, then it's clear to me that they have a lot of good inside of them. It's just that it's rarely as simple as that. People who suffer from depression walk all the walks of life and range in degrees of creature comforts. That's not what depression is about. If you're depressed, there's a reason. Maybe not one that your friend can easily discern. Maybe not even a reason that you are aware of. But there IS a reason. We do not feel things in a vacuum. There's a cause for every effect. For every feeling there's a source. You just have to find it. I know that you will. I have faith in my friends. I have faith in you.
I think you have every right to want a quieter night at a pub, enjoying the company of your mates in a way that you just can't at a club. It's a different atmosphere. One that I don't think we get to enjoy in this crazy paced world. I think what you suggested sounds lush.
So, in short (which wasn't all that short, was it?), you're not an asshole. No way. You're a good guy. One that I'm really happy to have met.
Hope you find your source soon.
Anguz, the last thing you are is an asshole. Listen to DelaneyJae. She knows what she's talking about.
And as for your "mate" saying that you've no right to be depressed because you're healthy (good), good looking (god, yes), have great mates (well, yes but...), and have a good standard of living (what, well off people can't be sad?) doesn't mean that you can't be depressed. Often, depression isn't related to your actual surroundings. Often it's related to a chemical imbalance or to something that you haven't addressed in your life. Just because everthing "on paper" looks good does not mean that there's nothing wrong OFF the page, you know?
And I don't mean this to sound like your mates are not good mates. If you chose them, then it's clear to me that they have a lot of good inside of them. It's just that it's rarely as simple as that. People who suffer from depression walk all the walks of life and range in degrees of creature comforts. That's not what depression is about. If you're depressed, there's a reason. Maybe not one that your friend can easily discern. Maybe not even a reason that you are aware of. But there IS a reason. We do not feel things in a vacuum. There's a cause for every effect. For every feeling there's a source. You just have to find it. I know that you will. I have faith in my friends. I have faith in you.
I think you have every right to want a quieter night at a pub, enjoying the company of your mates in a way that you just can't at a club. It's a different atmosphere. One that I don't think we get to enjoy in this crazy paced world. I think what you suggested sounds lush.
So, in short (which wasn't all that short, was it?), you're not an asshole. No way. You're a good guy. One that I'm really happy to have met.
Hope you find your source soon.
varite:
I don't think it's wrong at all to want to do something different for a change... My guy right now thinks he has to get piss drunk every time he has a day off and then he feels like complete shit for the next couple days afterwards... I'm with you on this one, I'd MUCH rather have some drinks in a place where you can talk to your friends.. makes for a much more enjoyable evening in my mind!
Oh, and I got the Transformers reference too...
Oh, and I got the Transformers reference too...
So far the 'rents being here has not been quite the trial I was expecting. Got the major hurdles out the way with a lot less pain than could have been had. My parents lack any kind of reasonable social skills so was really worried about them meeting my mates, but it went fairly well. One of them mentioned that it was a bit awkward,...
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