I can't leave you guys!
Look: I'm at a lowpoint in my life right now, and some minor misunderstandings made my insecurites all leap out at once and jump my ass and I thought I had to leave in order to slowly piece everything back together. That's been the pattern in my life...i have friends while everything is fine and dandy, but when trouble hits I find empty chairs and knives in my back. It's been that way for so long I sometimes forget that human nature has its positive aspects.
You guys really make me want to stay, and believe that I don't have to do the hard things alone anymore. You also have no idea how hard it is to write soppy stuff like this.
Anyway, I appreciate all the support you guys give me, and I hope that I can return the favor anytime you need it.
Minerva gave me the truth to deal with the problem at hand, Persya listened to me when i needed someone to talk to, Mle always knows how to make me feel better, and Morgan made me smile for the first time in days. The real clincher was Cambria though, since she wanted me to stay and help her, and she's someone I could never turn down in a time of need. You should throw love towards everyone mentioned, plus Lecia, Lotus, and erikawithak, because they just rock.
Fuckin' hell, I feel like I just gave an award speech.
It's been a rough week, but it was worth it. I did stuff that made my best friends happy, and I gained a treasure trove of perspective that's going to help with a lot of stuff in the long run, including my great escape out of this horrible state sometime later this year. I'd like to say that I'm feeling 100% better, but I have to admit that I'm still having some negativity about myself that isn't going to go away right off the bat. But at least now I know I can deal with it again, and maybe even come out stronger than I've been in years. I love all you guys.
Look: I'm at a lowpoint in my life right now, and some minor misunderstandings made my insecurites all leap out at once and jump my ass and I thought I had to leave in order to slowly piece everything back together. That's been the pattern in my life...i have friends while everything is fine and dandy, but when trouble hits I find empty chairs and knives in my back. It's been that way for so long I sometimes forget that human nature has its positive aspects.
You guys really make me want to stay, and believe that I don't have to do the hard things alone anymore. You also have no idea how hard it is to write soppy stuff like this.
Anyway, I appreciate all the support you guys give me, and I hope that I can return the favor anytime you need it.
Minerva gave me the truth to deal with the problem at hand, Persya listened to me when i needed someone to talk to, Mle always knows how to make me feel better, and Morgan made me smile for the first time in days. The real clincher was Cambria though, since she wanted me to stay and help her, and she's someone I could never turn down in a time of need. You should throw love towards everyone mentioned, plus Lecia, Lotus, and erikawithak, because they just rock.
Fuckin' hell, I feel like I just gave an award speech.
It's been a rough week, but it was worth it. I did stuff that made my best friends happy, and I gained a treasure trove of perspective that's going to help with a lot of stuff in the long run, including my great escape out of this horrible state sometime later this year. I'd like to say that I'm feeling 100% better, but I have to admit that I'm still having some negativity about myself that isn't going to go away right off the bat. But at least now I know I can deal with it again, and maybe even come out stronger than I've been in years. I love all you guys.
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lecia:
k, g'night
xanippi:
you picked up morgan in c'ville crazy! god and i've been so desperate to get out of there... oh well... yup i go to c'ville on break.
you picked up morgan in c'ville crazy! god and i've been so desperate to get out of there... oh well... yup i go to c'ville on break.