Updating for the sake of something more cheerful to look at for any pass by here. Relatively cheeful, anyway....covering up another angst entry from a few hours ago.
All my self-improvements involve removal of things from myself. I wonder how much I have to pare away from myself in order to be better? What if I keep cutting away obsessively until one day there was...
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All my self-improvements involve removal of things from myself. I wonder how much I have to pare away from myself in order to be better? What if I keep cutting away obsessively until one day there was...
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fiendclub:
a bunch of stuff. the bunny is nice.
mle:
i do always have you
Ok....feeling really dumb, cause I had a bad miscommunication with a friend and now I"m worried that I just screwed said friendship up. I really hate being misunderstood, since a part of the career I'm striving to attain is being understood through my words, so I take it personally. It means that now only do I fail a friend, it also means that I failed...
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lotus:
don't be. silly face. I'm sure you're overreacting, because I'm pretty sure you're talking about me.
pihka:
Yeup. I feel the same. 
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itzie:
thought i lost you there. Glad to see you're not gone forever like so many other friends past. I think your hair looks good, but I do have to admit, I'm pretty partial to long haired dudes. Anyhoo. welcome back 
april:
nope
-ape
-ape
Weekends suck donkey balls.
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In an effort to think more positively, I have decided to take the approach of taking life's lemons and making lemonade. I think I have found the first application for this among my problems.
One of my resolutions for this year was to start dating again...or at least try to get off my mopey ass and get laid. I was honestly so confused that I...
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One of my resolutions for this year was to start dating again...or at least try to get off my mopey ass and get laid. I was honestly so confused that I...
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poison:
hahaha way to make a fortune doll! woot!
thistle:
1. i suggest malibu or west LA.
2. i love the word homunculus.
3. your profile picture is funny.
2. i love the word homunculus.
3. your profile picture is funny.
My luck is getting worse and worse.
I'm not even going into any details at this point, because it doesn't even seem worth it.
I'm cancelling my account in order to save a few bucks, since the move is the only thing I have left in my life right. I was planning on staying on, but now with the medical bills this stupid virus has...
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I'm not even going into any details at this point, because it doesn't even seem worth it.
I'm cancelling my account in order to save a few bucks, since the move is the only thing I have left in my life right. I was planning on staying on, but now with the medical bills this stupid virus has...
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squidproquo:
if you insist on leaving, you must grace me with your IM info. i'm even more inept on IM than i am in real life, but i dig you.
and thank you for your comments. i'm not sure if i'm better but i'm trying to hang in there. i hope you are too, even though things sound pretty crappy over there right now. *hugs*
and thank you for your comments. i'm not sure if i'm better but i'm trying to hang in there. i hope you are too, even though things sound pretty crappy over there right now. *hugs*
Last night really sucked balls.
The pains in the right side of my stomach had gotten even worse, so I thought it was time to get them checked out in case it was appendicitis. Seven hours and a few thousand dollars worth of tests for this uninsured patient showed them to be a virus. Which means if I just went home and laid down in...
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The pains in the right side of my stomach had gotten even worse, so I thought it was time to get them checked out in case it was appendicitis. Seven hours and a few thousand dollars worth of tests for this uninsured patient showed them to be a virus. Which means if I just went home and laid down in...
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lecia:
damn...i hope you feel better soon, hunny
I'm feeling a lot better this morning; a long talk with Mle last night helped like it always does when I'm feeling depressed. I still don't know what I"m going to do with myself though, but at least I'm not fretting so much about the disconnected feeling. Maybe this will all go away when I'm around people again. It's been forever since I've had that,...
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lecia:
well, call me if you need to talk, k?
lecia:
well, i'm about to clean & stuff right now, but you can try later
I think I've reached a new level of being disconnected from people.
I'm not certain it's a bad thing though.
This is the level where everyone in your life is nothing more than an acquaintance, even those you've known since as far back you can remember. You're so unattached to anyone on this earth that you can't feel anything beyond yourself, and everyone else feels...
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I'm not certain it's a bad thing though.
This is the level where everyone in your life is nothing more than an acquaintance, even those you've known since as far back you can remember. You're so unattached to anyone on this earth that you can't feel anything beyond yourself, and everyone else feels...
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squidproquo:
well, in that case, i apologize. i exist in a world of what i like to call "the warm fuzzies", where i am most often disgustingly optimistic. i was using the "not alone" thing in a broader, kindred-spirit-y thing, but i never really realized how bad i am at trying to give support and how it usually makes the support-ee feel worse.
my bad, yo.
my bad, yo.
thistle:
it's all true. when it comes right down to it, everybody dies alone.
I just found out some I care about died, and I'm just finding this out now because I pushed them out of my life for something someone else did.
I"m going to be gone a few days, I think, as there's just some things I need to come to terms with, and there's a lot of things on here that are too aggravating and petty...
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I"m going to be gone a few days, I think, as there's just some things I need to come to terms with, and there's a lot of things on here that are too aggravating and petty...
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lecia:
oh, shit. are you ok? you have my cell number, so please call if you need to talk.
I just found out some I care about died, and I'm just finding this out now because I pushed them out of my life for something someone else did.
I"m going to be gone a few days, I think, as there's just some things I need to come to terms with, and there's a lot of things on here that are too aggravating and petty...
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I"m going to be gone a few days, I think, as there's just some things I need to come to terms with, and there's a lot of things on here that are too aggravating and petty...
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xanippi:
*******************hhhhhhuuuuggggsss***************
Black Ice + Flood Water + Blizzard = I hate this fucking place.
lecia:
that sux ass