The Good: I have a special lady friend in my life right now.
The Bad: I have so very little time right now, between school, work, said special lady friend, and general mood swings.
The Ugly: A really dear friend posted a pic of her graduating class today; the class that I should have remained a part of. Today was their last day of class. However due to a case of a bad thing happening to a good person (and my ticket came up), I'm no longer a part of that class.
The pic brought to surface a lot of negative feelings. On one side, I'm on the verge of tears in a woe is me fashion, but on the other hand I want to lash out. I want the fucking assholes who threw this on me to feel some sort of mental anguish this has caused. Whether they really believed I did something wrong or not, I want them to take all the year's worth of negativity, suffering and self doubt that was thrust upon me and fucking choke on it.
I can honestly say, if I had their lives in my hand, I doubt I would make the right choice. Not right at this moment. Shitty thing to say I'm sure, but my entire year has truly been one shitty event after another, most of which were either directly or indirectly caused by the single event that started the whole emo ball rolling.
Perhaps I'm being obscure, but it's like I want to share but not share at the same time.
I just hope my negativity can be kept in check because I really dig this special lady friend.
*sigh*
The Bad: I have so very little time right now, between school, work, said special lady friend, and general mood swings.
The Ugly: A really dear friend posted a pic of her graduating class today; the class that I should have remained a part of. Today was their last day of class. However due to a case of a bad thing happening to a good person (and my ticket came up), I'm no longer a part of that class.
The pic brought to surface a lot of negative feelings. On one side, I'm on the verge of tears in a woe is me fashion, but on the other hand I want to lash out. I want the fucking assholes who threw this on me to feel some sort of mental anguish this has caused. Whether they really believed I did something wrong or not, I want them to take all the year's worth of negativity, suffering and self doubt that was thrust upon me and fucking choke on it.
I can honestly say, if I had their lives in my hand, I doubt I would make the right choice. Not right at this moment. Shitty thing to say I'm sure, but my entire year has truly been one shitty event after another, most of which were either directly or indirectly caused by the single event that started the whole emo ball rolling.
Perhaps I'm being obscure, but it's like I want to share but not share at the same time.
I just hope my negativity can be kept in check because I really dig this special lady friend.
*sigh*
moxy:
:/