andreya

My building almost caught fire yesterday! I was just sitting at my desk, and D. came down and said, "What the hell is that?" I was like, "Oh, shit! I didn't do it!" She went to the glass doors and freaked and demanded that I let her out (I have to click the doors open). So I open the door and I hear L. coming...
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I am crying. It makes me feel so weak. But what I really need to do is run, punch, scream: "FUCK!!!" I am trying. I do not know everything and I do not understand everything. I don't mean to frustrate anyone. I don't mean to cry either. But the anger wells up inside me and it comes out in tears. I hate these tears. I...
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Sometimes apologizing only makes things worse. I have to learn to be strong in my decisions and make no apologies for who I am and what I want. This guy was so gorgeous. I am still thinking about him. He knocked K. and A. right out of my system. Too bad he's taken...damn, but he does make for a hot fantasy.

Tonight...tonight. I went to a show at the Derby tonight. I was sitting there, not really enjoying the band, and then I saw him. This guy was orgasms to look at. And I wanted him right away. He came and sat at the bar not far from me and I sat and tried to figure out a way to talk to him for what seemed...
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Work feels very slow today. That always worries me. Makes me wonder if I'm missing something or being a slacker, which would be fine...only I'd really like to make lots more money than I do now. Money money money. I figure if I can't have love I might as well have that. I know it's not everything, and I know that it does not buy...
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I just recently found out about Fatal Beauty. My immediate reaction was to hate them and think, "Nobody does it like Suicidegirls!" But then I thought, "Well, what if these people are somehow affiliated with SG?" Hmm...but I doubt it, and I wonder if that's why Maya, Faith, and Hel are no longer active here. I often wonder what causes a girl to choose to...
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I drove home today feeling very confident that I could find him. We were headed back to my car and then A. swore his ex-girlfriend was following us around. He wanted to leave me to go confront her, and I said, "Why do you have to? Why not just leave it alone?" I thought I had convinced him, but then he decided to leave. He...
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Wow. I've gone from a guy that freaked out when I tried to see him more than once in one week to one that won't freakin' leave me alone! Is there no happy medium? He seems like a cool guy and all...pro-skater (although no one I've ever heard of), good looking (though not exactly the type I usually go for), great personality, sweet voice, but...
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It's over. I have another small heart break to add to the list. The world keeps revolving and I wish that it would let me stop and think. There are so many things I want to do and so much to learn before I can do them. I just want to stop and breathe for a while. I want to feel safe...just once in a...
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I believe my room mates officially think I'm crazy. After deciding I need a new guy and seeing Powder on Saturday, I felt determined once again to get myself to the gym to curb my steady decline into fatness. But I knew I needed help and it is always helpful to me to put up reminders to myself, so Sunday afternoon I sat down and...
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