I feel my life spiraling out of my own control. It's so overwhelming. I need to be there for this and that person, and I need to do this and that for this and that person, and phones ring, and e-mails and im's come in, and the doorbell buzzes, and so and so needs to speak with so and so and the former so and...
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itsalivemedia:
A steady diet of Office Space, U2 and a hot black pump should do the trick. That and Tito's Tacos.
I feel like such a dumbass. I wanted to try to talk to him so badly. So I called and of course he didn't pick up. So I left this retarded fucking message. Something like: Hi,_____, I'm sorry to keep calling you...I'm just being all paranoid girly girl and wondering if you're going to call me again. I know you're really busy, but please call...
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72decibell:
jeez, id love it if i got a message like that...if he likes you it wont change a thing and if he doesnt, well, it probably wont change a thing. putting yerself out there is scary but well worth it in the end. whenever that comes along... 
I had something he wanted.
He had something I didn't even
Know I needed.
But he gave me a little taste,
Just enough to tease.
And then he left me stranded
Eager and wanting more.
Doesn't he know?
He had something I didn't even
Know I needed.
But he gave me a little taste,
Just enough to tease.
And then he left me stranded
Eager and wanting more.
Doesn't he know?
I came home today from a weekend at my parents' house and felt very uncomfortable around my room mates. Sometimes I feel so odd around them. I guess it had something to do with the fact that I didn't feel like talking to anyone. I just wanted to go to my room and brood. Over what? I'm not sure. Maybe it's just that a certain...
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prendick:
It's a VERY powerful thing. Too powerful at times...but as they say, something that feels that good can't be all bad.
I discovered this in Muncie IN...where the ghosts are...I'll see what I can do about getting you a picture of the spirits. I won't be back there for a month or two.
I discovered this in Muncie IN...where the ghosts are...I'll see what I can do about getting you a picture of the spirits. I won't be back there for a month or two.
Do you believe in ghosts? I think I do. I used to love scaring the crap outta myself when I was a little kid but I really haven't done that in years, and so I really didn't think about ghosts for a while. But this morning, I woke up before my alarm woke me and I looked to my left where a poster of the...
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prendick:
People experience the spiritual world in different ways, as with everything. My most reacent experience happened a few months a go in a little town in Indiana. The is an old Vaudiville stage there and after a recent performance (the towns civic theatre now resides there) a friend of mine who runs the place was showing me photos he had just taken of the performance on his digital camera. "Take a look at this," he said. On several of the pics there was a blue sphere...quite unlike a flash or lens flare. We talked for a moment about it and he explained that some "ghost chasers" had reacently swept the place and found a whold bunch of these in the crawl space upstairs. We immediatly went for a look. Now the weird thing about these spirits is that they appear as orbs only in photography. So, in the crawl space, he took a photo...and oh my god...there were at least a hundred of them. Some blue, some white, some red. I'd never seen anything like it. But, to the naked eye, you could see nothing. Yea, I believe in ghosts, because they believe in me and I believe in you!
I think I'm sad. This weekend was supposed to be a ton of busy fun, and then it was all ruined. I didn't go to Electric Daisy like I was 'sposed to, I watched a movie that depressed the hell out of me, and I tried to comfort my room mate who was freaking out about a guy not talking to her, and in the... Read More
prendick:
Sometimes I forget that the sun will rise tomorrow.
Sometimes I forget to stop and smell the roses.
But that doesn't stop them from being beatiful and important to this world.
If he's forgotten you, remain your beautiful self, he'll remember!
Sometimes I forget to stop and smell the roses.
But that doesn't stop them from being beatiful and important to this world.
If he's forgotten you, remain your beautiful self, he'll remember!
Stop. Think about the future for a moment. Think about a time when we will not be here, and our civilization will have crumbled to mere rubble in the earth. Think about what other beings will think of us if they discover our remnants. Maybe they will be aliens, or maybe they will be humans whose culture has evolved to something we cannot imagine. And...
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What a weird thing life is. Happiness is rare and even when it comes it can be such a stressful thing. Especially for me. I am too quick to jump for joy and then too prone to fall into despair. Relationships with people can be so much like drugs. I'm sick of coming down. I want a happy medium.
puddleofbludd1:
I smell your lightsaber.
Today seems odd. I actually can't find anything important to do. Am I missing something? So since I am bored more or less, I have too much time to sit here and sulk and wonder why I got passed over for the job I wanted. I'm so damn obsessed with feeling successful, but what the hell is that? Success is like happiness. It's all in...
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I just found out the chick that got hired along with me makes 6k more. Bitches. Am I stressing out about money, too much, or am I stupid for letting them pay me as little as they do? I try to tell myself it's not all about the money. I like what I'm doing, and that's what counts...but in the end I find myself wondering...
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sparxfly:
money isn't everything...money is just what it is, money...the more you have, the more of everything you have...more possessions, more bills, more problems...but at least you can eat well
Dammit!!! I hate being put on hold! I have shit to do which I consider more worthwhile than fighting with the telephone company! Jerks. 
irish_187:
hey, saw that you are into dragonlance and leon. Figure that I would say hey, sorry bout the telephone company thing as well. Hopefully things go better for you Friday. Give me a heads up sometime, let me know what your favorite Dragonlance book was. 
lovitch:
Fuck the telephone company!!! I cant stan dealing with them
Alone on a Sunday
Pondering.
Not knowing what to do
Just floudering.
Money's tight
And time is short,
but still I sit and wait, inactive.
Don't step out in the sun,
It's blistering.
Don't stay here in the dark,
It's smothering.
Where's the way
That I should take?
I'm still here lost inside my reverie.
Pondering.
Not knowing what to do
Just floudering.
Money's tight
And time is short,
but still I sit and wait, inactive.
Don't step out in the sun,
It's blistering.
Don't stay here in the dark,
It's smothering.
Where's the way
That I should take?
I'm still here lost inside my reverie.