andreya

I sit alone, in the darkness
And think to myself:
Believe, Believe
And for a long time
Nothing happens
But then I can see
Into the blackness
And I see nothing
But it enfolds me
And it is safe
And I am living in it.
My back has been hurting
My feet have gone numb
But now I feel nothing
I float in nothing.
This...
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PETA can kiss my omnivoric ass. Don't get me wrong. I love animals. Adore them. I try to kill them as little as possible...even bugs. (Except for ants...ants I have no pity for.) I cry during sad moments in animal shows, and I would not hesitate to risk my life if my dog was in danger. I love animals. Few things make me as sad...
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Do you ever want to leave a girl a mean comment?
Sometimes I do, but I don't do it. I figure I really don't wanna look like an ass. And besides it takes some level of guts to let people look at you naked, so it really wouldn't be nice of me to be like, "Not impressed." I'm not impressed somewhat often.
I am sick...
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Shall I call my love, my fall back rut?
The one I can count on whenever I'm stuck.
I keep living my dreams,
And then letting them go,
Or maybe it really
Wasn't my fault.

Can I carry a tune, can I sing you a song?
I've been wanting to sing tunes he taught me to love.
Can I lend you a hand, can I...
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My building almost caught fire yesterday! I was just sitting at my desk, and D. came down and said, "What the hell is that?" I was like, "Oh, shit! I didn't do it!" She went to the glass doors and freaked and demanded that I let her out (I have to click the doors open). So I open the door and I hear L. coming...
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I am crying. It makes me feel so weak. But what I really need to do is run, punch, scream: "FUCK!!!" I am trying. I do not know everything and I do not understand everything. I don't mean to frustrate anyone. I don't mean to cry either. But the anger wells up inside me and it comes out in tears. I hate these tears. I...
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Sometimes apologizing only makes things worse. I have to learn to be strong in my decisions and make no apologies for who I am and what I want. This guy was so gorgeous. I am still thinking about him. He knocked K. and A. right out of my system. Too bad he's taken...damn, but he does make for a hot fantasy.

Tonight...tonight. I went to a show at the Derby tonight. I was sitting there, not really enjoying the band, and then I saw him. This guy was orgasms to look at. And I wanted him right away. He came and sat at the bar not far from me and I sat and tried to figure out a way to talk to him for what seemed...
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Work feels very slow today. That always worries me. Makes me wonder if I'm missing something or being a slacker, which would be fine...only I'd really like to make lots more money than I do now. Money money money. I figure if I can't have love I might as well have that. I know it's not everything, and I know that it does not buy...
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I just recently found out about Fatal Beauty. My immediate reaction was to hate them and think, "Nobody does it like Suicidegirls!" But then I thought, "Well, what if these people are somehow affiliated with SG?" Hmm...but I doubt it, and I wonder if that's why Maya, Faith, and Hel are no longer active here. I often wonder what causes a girl to choose to...
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I drove home today feeling very confident that I could find him. We were headed back to my car and then A. swore his ex-girlfriend was following us around. He wanted to leave me to go confront her, and I said, "Why do you have to? Why not just leave it alone?" I thought I had convinced him, but then he decided to leave. He...
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Wow. I've gone from a guy that freaked out when I tried to see him more than once in one week to one that won't freakin' leave me alone! Is there no happy medium? He seems like a cool guy and all...pro-skater (although no one I've ever heard of), good looking (though not exactly the type I usually go for), great personality, sweet voice, but...
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