The theme for today: LOVE.
Yuh, it's a four freaking letter word. I know this. All too well in fact.
To quote a fave movie line. "Love spelled backwards is EVIL! E-V-O-L EVIL! See?!?!?!"
::sighs:: Very Melancholy this day. I know I'm no good at dating. It's a given fact of life. Another given fact is well....I'm not exactly the cream of the crop out here in AZ. Looks wise at least I suppose. And lets be perfectly honest now folks, your attractiveness is how you get your damn foot wedged in the door of someone elses armor.
(Note to self: Work on self attractiveness.)
Anyway, let's take a look at Like Interest C. Like interest C is a co-worker (kinda sorta, we work in same building but work for different comapnies.) We have similar interests, (ie Music, Movies, Cars, and Photography; huge similarities in my book. He rocks.) but alas LI C is interested in my shiney spiffy model girl. (View pics, she's a hottie). Plus side: Model girl is not so subtly avoiding LI C. Minus side: How the hell am I to compete with MG?!?! I'm not being down on myself, just being realistic is all. Shot down: Asked LI C to hang out on Patties day. Not a for sure thing, I know this, but was some what kinda hoping LI C would at least call. Big negative on the call. I've come to the conclusion.....dude doesn't call....dude isn't interested. Hope is not all lost: LI C is still tender from MG burn, perhaps may come around later. Perhaps I am just kidding myself. Who knows?
Now for Like Interest B (now demoted to dude in photo class). Asked LI B if perhaps some night would like to catch dinner. Said sure and maybe we could go take some pictures together as well. Not exactly warm and fuzzy, pretty much understood he's not at all interested, excpet picking my overly photo-ripe brain. This last Tues had photo shoot with MG and texted LI B where the shoot was and said he was welcome to come. Dude actually had the gall to text back "Sorry I have a girlfriend". Texted dude back "Wasn't asking you out, get over yourself." Dude texted back "Oh, well what are you shooting?" Ignored dude .
Asshole.
Last but not least LI A. LI A lives in Texas. This fact alone kills off LI A.
::le big sigh::
I need a nice man to cuddle with, a girlfriend, and a nice dildo and/or strap-on for said girlfriend. Anyone game?
Anyway, back to the whole love thing. I've come to the realization today, that I've never really been "in love". Sure I've had warm gushey feelings about people, but then....I get warm gushey feelings whenever I make a perfect print in the darkroom. This realization makes me yearn for intamacy and cuddlyfunness. Is there such thing as a cuddlyfunness booty call?
Sorry, Rambly thoughts of mine. Need to vent. Will post pics after done scanning them of my last couple assignments. Also will post details about Final Project idea.
I leave with this question.
Q: What are you afraid of?
Me A: Death, ie....the end of me.
Yuh, it's a four freaking letter word. I know this. All too well in fact.
To quote a fave movie line. "Love spelled backwards is EVIL! E-V-O-L EVIL! See?!?!?!"
::sighs:: Very Melancholy this day. I know I'm no good at dating. It's a given fact of life. Another given fact is well....I'm not exactly the cream of the crop out here in AZ. Looks wise at least I suppose. And lets be perfectly honest now folks, your attractiveness is how you get your damn foot wedged in the door of someone elses armor.
(Note to self: Work on self attractiveness.)
Anyway, let's take a look at Like Interest C. Like interest C is a co-worker (kinda sorta, we work in same building but work for different comapnies.) We have similar interests, (ie Music, Movies, Cars, and Photography; huge similarities in my book. He rocks.) but alas LI C is interested in my shiney spiffy model girl. (View pics, she's a hottie). Plus side: Model girl is not so subtly avoiding LI C. Minus side: How the hell am I to compete with MG?!?! I'm not being down on myself, just being realistic is all. Shot down: Asked LI C to hang out on Patties day. Not a for sure thing, I know this, but was some what kinda hoping LI C would at least call. Big negative on the call. I've come to the conclusion.....dude doesn't call....dude isn't interested. Hope is not all lost: LI C is still tender from MG burn, perhaps may come around later. Perhaps I am just kidding myself. Who knows?
Now for Like Interest B (now demoted to dude in photo class). Asked LI B if perhaps some night would like to catch dinner. Said sure and maybe we could go take some pictures together as well. Not exactly warm and fuzzy, pretty much understood he's not at all interested, excpet picking my overly photo-ripe brain. This last Tues had photo shoot with MG and texted LI B where the shoot was and said he was welcome to come. Dude actually had the gall to text back "Sorry I have a girlfriend". Texted dude back "Wasn't asking you out, get over yourself." Dude texted back "Oh, well what are you shooting?" Ignored dude .
Asshole.
Last but not least LI A. LI A lives in Texas. This fact alone kills off LI A.
::le big sigh::
I need a nice man to cuddle with, a girlfriend, and a nice dildo and/or strap-on for said girlfriend. Anyone game?
Anyway, back to the whole love thing. I've come to the realization today, that I've never really been "in love". Sure I've had warm gushey feelings about people, but then....I get warm gushey feelings whenever I make a perfect print in the darkroom. This realization makes me yearn for intamacy and cuddlyfunness. Is there such thing as a cuddlyfunness booty call?
Sorry, Rambly thoughts of mine. Need to vent. Will post pics after done scanning them of my last couple assignments. Also will post details about Final Project idea.
I leave with this question.
Q: What are you afraid of?
Me A: Death, ie....the end of me.
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sorry your having a bad day drop by anytime for happiness or digital cuddles, sorry best i can do from here.wouldn't worry about striking out, there is somebody for everyone, (expect me
how come no pics of angel?
-I will not fear,
fear is the mind killer,
fear is the little death that brings obliteration
I wiill face my fear
I will let is pass tthrough me and over me-
-Frank Herbert
You've don a pritty good job of hiding how you look here in SG land but I bet you'd be realy fun to hang out with from what you do and write! I dont know anyone I like that looks cosmo (except for some guys actually). I think that looking like a barbie makes you think like a barbie.
I TOTALLY want some more vocals to mix with the others, to go on top. Can you think of a chorus perhaps - a simple phrase or stanza that you can sing in three different melodies?
Send me anything and I will digitalize it!
If I ever get a bunch of money I will buy a bunch of my SG friends plane tickets!