There are times when David Bowie's Hunky Dory is the only thing that's going to get you to sleep, This is one of those times. I swore I bought that bastard on CD at some stage...
Fuckers!
Fuckers!
So! Busy week this week. Nonetheless, I have little in the way of exciting news. Managed to do some decent business earlier this week, enough to treat myself to a trip to the tailors. Yes, I really do register way up on the gaydar, but frankly, I admire the way homosexual men actually care about what they wear and how they look. I'm an honorary...
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tatianadanielle:
Thank you for the lovely comment on my page 
lil_em:
Morning sweetness. Yeah, although the good mood didn't last and I ended up driving the cab on Saturday night mostly in tears. Still, all in all I had a positive weekend and I managed to go through it without contacting him, believe me that was incredibly tough, particularly in the cab when I had hours of thinking time! 
I'm also looking forward to working again with the business. Unfortunately though its not as easy as you would think as there are no other specialists in the field that don't want to blast everything out of the sky but still, where there's a will there's a way
Unfortunately the colleague can't do site visits either because of his personal circumstances and ailing health. You and that business brain of yours!! Mind you, I'm glad you don't charge! Hehe
10:10 on a saturday night and J has not long finished working? Are you insane? Having said that, you did go off exploring museums on a school day last week so I guess that's fair do's.
I can't tell you the amount of times I've wished I had a local near me that I would feel comfortable just popping into on my own. The only places like that I know are 20 miles away where my Dad used to drink. Still, it would only have contributed to me having a potential drink problem so maybe it's a blessing. I still don't know what to do about that particular issue either. Still, there's no rush.
Don't drink alone if you can help it honey, it's not healthy
Sending you lots of nice cuddles today as that's what I feel I could do with, and I'm thinking if you were drinking alone Saturday night, maybe you could to?
xx
I'm also looking forward to working again with the business. Unfortunately though its not as easy as you would think as there are no other specialists in the field that don't want to blast everything out of the sky but still, where there's a will there's a way
Unfortunately the colleague can't do site visits either because of his personal circumstances and ailing health. You and that business brain of yours!! Mind you, I'm glad you don't charge! Hehe
10:10 on a saturday night and J has not long finished working? Are you insane? Having said that, you did go off exploring museums on a school day last week so I guess that's fair do's.
I can't tell you the amount of times I've wished I had a local near me that I would feel comfortable just popping into on my own. The only places like that I know are 20 miles away where my Dad used to drink. Still, it would only have contributed to me having a potential drink problem so maybe it's a blessing. I still don't know what to do about that particular issue either. Still, there's no rush.
Don't drink alone if you can help it honey, it's not healthy
Sending you lots of nice cuddles today as that's what I feel I could do with, and I'm thinking if you were drinking alone Saturday night, maybe you could to?
xx
First update of the year eh?!
I haven't updated because I haven't had a lot to say really. The year so far has gone well, but quietly. My computer decided to be a bitch so I've forked out for a new and oh so fancy one. I really treated myself this time. It's shiny!
Otherwise work is going well enough, although I've been a bit...
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I haven't updated because I haven't had a lot to say really. The year so far has gone well, but quietly. My computer decided to be a bitch so I've forked out for a new and oh so fancy one. I really treated myself this time. It's shiny!
Otherwise work is going well enough, although I've been a bit...
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lil_em:
Of course I don't want to bloody strangle you, I want to squeeze you!!
That bollocking was completely justified and I've laid there all night saying exactly the same things to myself!
This is my own fault
xx
That bollocking was completely justified and I've laid there all night saying exactly the same things to myself!
This is my own fault
xx
lil_em:
Hmmmm, yes being right all the time can be a little irritating 
Still, you're human too darling, I will keep reminding myself you're not perfect!
xx
Still, you're human too darling, I will keep reminding myself you're not perfect!
xx
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lil_em:
I'm trying love, believe me.
Thank you for reading my shite too love, it means a lot to me.
Thank you for reading my shite too love, it means a lot to me.
daisy:
I've had the worst week ever, some pestering would be great.
I'm serious too.
I'm serious too.
Ladies and Gentlemen, I'm sodding off to Austria for a while to eat drink and be merry.
Photos when I return! :o
XXX
Photos when I return! :o
XXX
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trickynicki:
Happy Holidays and enjoy!
daisy:
Ooooh, LOTS of photos please.
Preferably snowy ones. Ones of you falling in said snow would be good too.
I like photo updates.
Can't wait.
Preferably snowy ones. Ones of you falling in said snow would be good too.
I like photo updates.
Can't wait.
Phew! What a week! The Christmas rush is on it seems. Thus I haven't been around a great deal. Anyway, enough bitching.
Christmas, and the eternal dilemma of how to get through the three days of binge drinking without verbally or physically abusing the members of your family you can't bear.
Also, the eternal dilemma of precisely what to waste your money buying them, particularly...
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Christmas, and the eternal dilemma of how to get through the three days of binge drinking without verbally or physically abusing the members of your family you can't bear.
Also, the eternal dilemma of precisely what to waste your money buying them, particularly...
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lil_em:
OMG, what is this mystery gift AND envelope I see before me?
I need to explain that I am a very disciplined person when it comes to Christmas and would never be tempted to open a present early BUT what I have received is really tempting! What's with the envelope too?! What is it?! Why does it say open the present first, then the envelope?! I'm just not sure I can wait another 10 days! Aaaaaaaarrrrrrrrrrrgggggggggghhhhhhhhhhhh!
Big kisses to you darling and thank you.
Mwah!!!!!!!!!!
xx
I need to explain that I am a very disciplined person when it comes to Christmas and would never be tempted to open a present early BUT what I have received is really tempting! What's with the envelope too?! What is it?! Why does it say open the present first, then the envelope?! I'm just not sure I can wait another 10 days! Aaaaaaaarrrrrrrrrrrgggggggggghhhhhhhhhhhh!
Big kisses to you darling and thank you.
Mwah!!!!!!!!!!
xx
lil_em:
Ahhhhhhh, that would make sense! Cool, so now I'm not so tempted anymore, that's good
Yeah, there was a label which showed it was from you. I typed a message for yours only they left it off obviously
Have a good few days honey xx
Yeah, there was a label which showed it was from you. I typed a message for yours only they left it off obviously
Have a good few days honey xx
Who did what did when did where now?
I feel like life is flashing by my very eyes and I'm not sure I've got a whole lot of control over what I'm doing.
Then again, that might just be drunken talk!
I feel like life is flashing by my very eyes and I'm not sure I've got a whole lot of control over what I'm doing.
Then again, that might just be drunken talk!
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lil_em:
KFC have got to be involved somewhere along the line, they are scum!
Also, as much as I don't like BK either, I was employed by them for years as a teenager so I have a bit of an affinity for them.
If we don't speak before, have a lovely weekend darling, hope you enjoy it whatever you do
Also, as much as I don't like BK either, I was employed by them for years as a teenager so I have a bit of an affinity for them.
If we don't speak before, have a lovely weekend darling, hope you enjoy it whatever you do
persya:
thanks darling !
it's not quite Louise Brooks...her hair is shorter in front...i like having the sharp angle though
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it's not quite Louise Brooks...her hair is shorter in front...i like having the sharp angle though
Fuck, is it Thursday already!?
I've had a satisfyingly busy week actually. Business has picked up, so I might have gone out and blown some money on clothes (I hate clothes shopping, but do give a fuck about what I wear so that's always a dilema). I'm slowly getting the ball rolling again work wise, and feeling a bit more like I have a purpose...
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I've had a satisfyingly busy week actually. Business has picked up, so I might have gone out and blown some money on clothes (I hate clothes shopping, but do give a fuck about what I wear so that's always a dilema). I'm slowly getting the ball rolling again work wise, and feeling a bit more like I have a purpose...
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lil_em:
You literally sent that last message to me as I text him to say goodbye.
That's it now J, I've done it and this time I know it's final. I feel sick, I could scream and I don't think I'll ever stop crying, but give me a minute and I may just be ok!
Fucking hell..............
Hopefully speak to you tomorrow chicken.
Hope you had a lush weekend.
Big hugs and kisses to you.
xx
That's it now J, I've done it and this time I know it's final. I feel sick, I could scream and I don't think I'll ever stop crying, but give me a minute and I may just be ok!
Fucking hell..............
Hopefully speak to you tomorrow chicken.
Hope you had a lush weekend.
Big hugs and kisses to you.
xx
lil_em:
Sorry I've not been in touch sooner. I've been really confused and not sure of anything anymore, if you know what I mean.
I then spoke to a friend of mine today, at length. I realised a few things today which I had no idea about before, and so it's been a funny old day really and I've had a few things that I had to do today.
I'm still all over the place with him and my family and work and everything else, but I'm trying to be more positive and not beat myself up quite so much. I'm seeing my friend again on Friday and I'm really looking forward to it.
The boy goes on holiday tomorrow and good or bad, I'm looking forward to it and dreading it all at once. It's going to be a challenging week but one I feel a little bit more ready for.
I'm out in the cab again tonight, so I won't get a chance to blog but I will try and do one tomorrow maybe.
I hope you're ok darling, you certainly sound busy! I hope this message finds you well and happy and I send you a small kiss on the cheek and a bloody big bear hug
I then spoke to a friend of mine today, at length. I realised a few things today which I had no idea about before, and so it's been a funny old day really and I've had a few things that I had to do today.
I'm still all over the place with him and my family and work and everything else, but I'm trying to be more positive and not beat myself up quite so much. I'm seeing my friend again on Friday and I'm really looking forward to it.
The boy goes on holiday tomorrow and good or bad, I'm looking forward to it and dreading it all at once. It's going to be a challenging week but one I feel a little bit more ready for.
I'm out in the cab again tonight, so I won't get a chance to blog but I will try and do one tomorrow maybe.
I hope you're ok darling, you certainly sound busy! I hope this message finds you well and happy and I send you a small kiss on the cheek and a bloody big bear hug
So I was going to go into detail on how the pub thing went, but actually I think it'd be pretty boring for those of you... and that's all of you... who don't have the detailed backstory. I didn't blog it before I went grey. Sort of a sore spot.
Suffice it to say that I felt pretty vindicated meeting all the old faces and...
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lil_em:
Hello you - how are you? You not speaking to me today?
xx
xx
lil_em:
Hehe, you're absolutely right. I'm paranoid in case you haven't already noticed! Always thinking I've upset people etc.
Yeah, the glorious English sea side - I live right on the South Coast darling, near Portsmouth ish. So if you ever have call to be down this way, you ought to give me a shout.
Bah to the bloke, I like that. He is mewing like a spoilt kitten, isn't he. I am also indulging him far too much, I know that but I don't know what else to do. The thought of never hearing from him again is just too much to cope with
If I told you what he's been saying this afternoon you'd die, it's so over the top! He's on his way here now to drop his front door key off - I've got to give it to my dog-sitter tomorrow while I'm away dreaming naughty things about Mark Owen. Hell, I'll be dreaming naughty things about Mark Owen and the rest of them!! Hehe
Hope you're having a nice mid-week, no doubt there'll be an update very soon, if you haven't lost the will to live over it all yet!!
xx
Yeah, the glorious English sea side - I live right on the South Coast darling, near Portsmouth ish. So if you ever have call to be down this way, you ought to give me a shout.
Bah to the bloke, I like that. He is mewing like a spoilt kitten, isn't he. I am also indulging him far too much, I know that but I don't know what else to do. The thought of never hearing from him again is just too much to cope with
If I told you what he's been saying this afternoon you'd die, it's so over the top! He's on his way here now to drop his front door key off - I've got to give it to my dog-sitter tomorrow while I'm away dreaming naughty things about Mark Owen. Hell, I'll be dreaming naughty things about Mark Owen and the rest of them!! Hehe
Hope you're having a nice mid-week, no doubt there'll be an update very soon, if you haven't lost the will to live over it all yet!!
xx
Update time!
Well, it's been a funny old week so far. It has mostly involved red wine, cancelled plans, plumbers and not nearly enough work.
I also had some very interesting news, or interesting to me anyway. My ex-business partner has finally gone bust. For those of you who don't know, I left the antiques business to set up a little country pub with a...
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Well, it's been a funny old week so far. It has mostly involved red wine, cancelled plans, plumbers and not nearly enough work.
I also had some very interesting news, or interesting to me anyway. My ex-business partner has finally gone bust. For those of you who don't know, I left the antiques business to set up a little country pub with a...
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lil_em:
Not that exciting but still, our hero has spoken..................
lil_em:
Good morning sweetheart. Yeah, I love it when that happens, that we're both thinking of each other at the same time, bless! Hehe 
I agree with you on the whole counselling thing. And even if we're not meant to be together, I've already said to him, he'll forever be alone if he treats all his girlfriends like this. He knows where he's going wrong but he insists there is nothing he can do to change it. To me, if he loves me that much, he'll have to get counselling, with or without me there, I don't care, just get it sorted already will you! I know I also have issues from my ex/childhood etc, and I am in the process of trying to get some help for that (I've been in and out of counselling for years so it's no biggy for me). I haven't told him any of this though so I guess I need to eh. To be honest, the only problem we've really had since we met was lack of communication, but obviously that's key to any successful relationship.
Since I did my blog last night, he text me asking if I was free tonight. When I said what for, he said maybe dinner? I reminded him that Slavia Prague v Arsenal kicks off at 7.45pm - he said he doesn't mind missing it (blimey!) or we could get a takeaway. I said ok - I went out to an animal rights meeting last night. He then text a couple of hours later saying I didn't sound too keen. He really is on the back foot now! That felt good! I just said of course I'm keen otherwise I'd have said no and left it at that. No doubt he sulked a lot after that as he didn't contact me again.
I text him this morning saying hope you slept ok. He text back blah blah blah. Then I said something about being out til late last night - he texts me back then - fucking outrageous - I hope you weren't out shagging or on a date. How rude! Still, it's obviously got him thinking eh.
Fucking men!!
Not you of course, you're smashin'
PS: The whole work thing isn't going so well. I'm still spending far too much time on SG and others and not actually achieving much, well, the bare minimum if I'm honest. The problem is I'm obviously finding it difficult to focus and when you're writing a consultancy study, focus is essential!! Doh!! Keep up the good work darling, you're doing well!!
I agree with you on the whole counselling thing. And even if we're not meant to be together, I've already said to him, he'll forever be alone if he treats all his girlfriends like this. He knows where he's going wrong but he insists there is nothing he can do to change it. To me, if he loves me that much, he'll have to get counselling, with or without me there, I don't care, just get it sorted already will you! I know I also have issues from my ex/childhood etc, and I am in the process of trying to get some help for that (I've been in and out of counselling for years so it's no biggy for me). I haven't told him any of this though so I guess I need to eh. To be honest, the only problem we've really had since we met was lack of communication, but obviously that's key to any successful relationship.
Since I did my blog last night, he text me asking if I was free tonight. When I said what for, he said maybe dinner? I reminded him that Slavia Prague v Arsenal kicks off at 7.45pm - he said he doesn't mind missing it (blimey!) or we could get a takeaway. I said ok - I went out to an animal rights meeting last night. He then text a couple of hours later saying I didn't sound too keen. He really is on the back foot now! That felt good! I just said of course I'm keen otherwise I'd have said no and left it at that. No doubt he sulked a lot after that as he didn't contact me again.
I text him this morning saying hope you slept ok. He text back blah blah blah. Then I said something about being out til late last night - he texts me back then - fucking outrageous - I hope you weren't out shagging or on a date. How rude! Still, it's obviously got him thinking eh.
Fucking men!!
Not you of course, you're smashin'
PS: The whole work thing isn't going so well. I'm still spending far too much time on SG and others and not actually achieving much, well, the bare minimum if I'm honest. The problem is I'm obviously finding it difficult to focus and when you're writing a consultancy study, focus is essential!! Doh!! Keep up the good work darling, you're doing well!!
Hope you're ok mister, you've been very aloof in 2008
xx