Life is a fucking bitch sometimes. I wish you could let someone inside your head and rather than try and describe exactly how you feel and what you feel about them using crude words they could just grasp it totally, and see the world through your eyes for just a second or two.

I know she'd feel better if she could do that.

I feel pretty horrible at the moment. It's a breakup if you haven't worked it out by now. I've got no intention of hashing out the details in a public place like this, but suffice it to say, sometimes love isn't enough, and it's better for all concerned to see the writing on the wall and act accordingly. I feel loss too, because the person in question is a wonderful amazing person who I love spending time with, but just know that long term it's not going to work out. I know myself too well nowadays, and I've never been good at burying my head in the sand and just letting life unfold as it may.

Like all the advice which sticks with you permanently a bloke in a pub told me this little gem: He said, "You don't marry the person that you fall most deeply in love with and who's best for you, you just marry the person you're with when you loose the strength to keep going through the pain of breaking up and starting again". I really hope that's not true. It feels like it makes sense now though.

Go on, say something to cheer me up.