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Thursday Sep 16, 2004

Sep 16, 2004
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My heart is beating too fast and the anxiety is coming on stronger with each breath. Sniglet is whining to go out, I'm trying to get dressed faster now and make it to work with my mind intact.
Last night was all to familiar and I'm getting more tired each day. 4 sleeping pills into fighting insomnia I just lay there thinking of reasons to carry on, shaking my head and fighting back the anxiety over why my inner monologue takes over and I give up on myself. I usually just lay there scared until something gives, the sun comes up again, and I fall asleep hoping to have some control over my sickness in the afternoon. I've been fighting with myself for 25 years, I'm tired, but I'll still fight. I'm just scared of the thoughts that come before peace of mind.
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ryan:
i know that feeling all too well...

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it's so incredibly frustrating.
Sep 20, 2004
lily:
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Sep 20, 2004

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