One thing I have learnt is don't sweat the small stuff. Shit if I did I would be sobbing continuously.
Another lesson sadly learnt this weekend is don't be quick to trust. It needs to be earned and not given immediately.
I make no bones about the fact I wear my heart on my sleeve. I can't help but tell the truth. And I often put myself out there.
This needs to stop. I need to take a stand back. People on the whole are not what you expect them to be.
Look at me. A lot of you probably think I am the loud mouth tattooed prick. Well yeah I am a bit of a prick. But I am so shy it hurts.
Lets talk about boys again. If there is someone I really like. I can't talk to them. I can't look them in the eye. I can shy away and ultimately make a cock of myself. I would turn in to a teenager, with no clue about the real world. A dribbling, mumbling mess who fails at basic communication.
Ultimately I unload my heart and soul to be quickly rebuffed.
So what do I do? Start so kind of covert operation? Shall I be all aloof and uncaring? It would feel wrong of me to put on a mask and not show the real me. I would rather shout from the roof tops "I think you're awesome and I sometimes pee with the bathroom door open".
I am not sure i can overcome my shyness that makes me so very socially awkward. i do however think I can become that uncaring bitch I am thought to be. Fuck it if you choose to write me off before you know me or not give me a chance that's hardly my problem.
So, no more trusting, not until it's earned.
Another lesson sadly learnt this weekend is don't be quick to trust. It needs to be earned and not given immediately.
I make no bones about the fact I wear my heart on my sleeve. I can't help but tell the truth. And I often put myself out there.
This needs to stop. I need to take a stand back. People on the whole are not what you expect them to be.
Look at me. A lot of you probably think I am the loud mouth tattooed prick. Well yeah I am a bit of a prick. But I am so shy it hurts.
Lets talk about boys again. If there is someone I really like. I can't talk to them. I can't look them in the eye. I can shy away and ultimately make a cock of myself. I would turn in to a teenager, with no clue about the real world. A dribbling, mumbling mess who fails at basic communication.
Ultimately I unload my heart and soul to be quickly rebuffed.
So what do I do? Start so kind of covert operation? Shall I be all aloof and uncaring? It would feel wrong of me to put on a mask and not show the real me. I would rather shout from the roof tops "I think you're awesome and I sometimes pee with the bathroom door open".
I am not sure i can overcome my shyness that makes me so very socially awkward. i do however think I can become that uncaring bitch I am thought to be. Fuck it if you choose to write me off before you know me or not give me a chance that's hardly my problem.
So, no more trusting, not until it's earned.
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sadly, I'm one of those who can't lie worth a demn so I end up being that quiet guy in the corner who looks away when you look at me - even to this day.
( though I do have my friends that probably wish I was still as shy as I was the day I met them... once I've known someone a while, I can finally be myself around them )
I'm so shy too...especially with people I like. I guess it can be a good thing...but sometimes when you know it's right, it'll be fine that you tell them you really like them & leave the bathroom door open!
For the record, I still don't think you really did anything wrong xx