amymay

Why does the book always get interesting at 4am? I read until my eyes wont stay open. i long to be folded safely away in to someones arms tonight. Someone that doesn't snore. But my side of the bed will be cold and his back will be to me. Thats what i get for not going to bed with him.
I'm tierd and my thoughts...
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Last night i spent a few hours reading with the rain pounding the roof above. It was peaceful. The book is a rediculouse romance about a chinies (fake?) religion. But some of it makes sence to me. qi ying yang and a scence of balance. I think balance is a lock on my life. One i've never found the key to.

Me thinks...
I've nothing intersting to say.

Not much to say ... again.
I painted for a bit today it was nice though the work is kinda crappy.
My heart is kind doing this weird pump normal then fast and hard then normal. Its kinda scareing the crap out of me but i'm trying to convince myself its all in my head. I had alot of problems with my heart when i...
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I just don't know what to say anymore... there isn't anything that hasn' already been said.

todays horiscope-
Dancing between fantasy and reality has become your way of life as you attempt to reach your dreams while keeping your feet on the ground. If you have been working too hard, now it's time to once again regain your balance. But this isn't time to give up if something is standing in your path. Don't get discouraged; determination and extra effort can...
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this empty feeling is VERY tiering

IN trying to be E's perfect wiffey i'm off to cook clean and make nice... if you want to know more details about whats going on go back a blog. Last night wasn't pretty but todays a new day ... right.
Everything is still the same the time frame the thinking the maybe a good chance of me leaveing. But till then i need to...
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So here's my big plan for the next month or so.
Next 2 weeks- I'll play along with E. and put effort in to being his perfect little wife that he wants. I'll try to be content and happy here.

Time in rochester (three weeks)- I'll fix up the house and consentrate and figureing out where who and how i want to be. I'll talk...
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