Yay they got here around 5am this early morning. We spent the day talking and playing bordgames. Its just nice to have them around. Makes me very happy and very sad at the same time. i somewhat think maybe i should go home with them for like a week. Just to ... say goodbye to it and see my mom again. Pipe dreams. Any how i'm tierd and have had a bitter sweet day. To many thoughts flaughting around in my head
So Heres a question for you. Whats your new years resolutions and do you think you'll stick to it?
Mine
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loose weight for my wedding-thats been my resolution sence i was 10 and it has never worked-
paint or sculpt something and FINISH it.
Meet people, make friends
Find E. friends if i have to (speaking of wich does anyone know a D&D game in northern Calif.?)
Make a home for us
Plann the danm wedding
Spend less time online and more time on myself.
find a job so i'm not useless
get glasses
Learn to drive ~again something i've been saying for a while but my knuckles go white and i forget everything when i'm behind the wheel. ~
Maybe see a shrink and start dealing with my inadiquisys. Yeah that would be nice
Anything else i should be doing?
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So i think i'm getting jelouse over something rediculous online. That means i'm getting attached... thats bad and silly. It makes me want to push away but i know i will get hurt cause i wont get fallowed. I wont get chased. Danm it i always do this. A few years ago i really liked this guy that i thought was to good for me. Looking back he may have liked me too... We became friends and the more i listend to him and hung out with him the more i liked him... so what did i do. I invited a good friend over to set them up... He fucked her and it cemented in the idea i wasn't good enough for him (because in my mind she was "better") I did that all the time. Even now when i like some one i try to set them up/get them to find someone else that is more deserveing. I find myself doing with E. too. Seeing some one that hits on him or one of his old friends and in my mind i'm wondering if they are a better fit.
I put way to much value on things that are unuptanable
I put to much effert in to the wrong things and set myself up for failure
I'm babbaling again.... stop me when i do that.
Go party and have fun, that should be your numero uno resolution.
The rest will work itself out, life is like that...