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On the brink of an anxiety attack all morning.
I can't get back to sleep.
The thought of trying to eat something turns my stomach.
My stairs are an obstacle more than ever.
I feel light headed and dizzy.



I want out of this place.

Music is not giving me the solace I yern for today.
Nothing is.



I woke up and my room smelled...
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circa_1983:
Man I've been like that before surreal I used to get anxiety attacks all the time.

I used to get them at nite. A certain dream would trigger them. I felt like my entire body was gonna explode and I was gonna rip from the inside out. skull

Once I got it I'd be up all nite. frown

I hope you feel better. My car is a 93 Honda Prelude. I haven't junked it yet its just sitting there. biggrin

Yea its overheating on me. My radiator fan broke so now I can't drive it around frown
onewithall:
i've got a twisted sleep issue as well, i absolutely luv my dreams, their like seperate realities for me, but it's the nights when i can't sleep, like last night, when the voices annoy and scare the hell out of me, the twist is...i'm the creator of the voices frown surreal

by the way......this is very very wicked love
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Maybe I am a selfish bitch.
Guess what... Don't care.

Too many years have gone by living my life,sticking it out in situations I was really unhappy with, for the sake of making others happy.

Taking into consideration the choices I've made in the last few weeks, I can't remeber when I have ever felt better.
And most of it is due to him:

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musicsnob:
i dont think i'm staying, we should talk or somethin sometime as i do believe i will be leaving soon. at least exchange email addresses. let me know. blackeyed
musicsnob:
you are really cute by the way
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endquire:
nothing is permanent. Things change in any time span. in the span of geological time all that humans create will be consumed and swallowed by the earth. in billions of years the solar system will be consumed.
sinkflsink:
What's up?
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EDIT!
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yuriel:
ok so outside of being a good photographer/editor and a total knockout, what precisely is it you are apologizing for?

EL SUICIDO LOCO
saltonsea:

psssh.

i thought it was going to be something bad....
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saltonsea:

yeah....my girl wins over my phone too.

even though she has smelly kisses
endquire:
good luck with the phone. I heard they break easy. That picture is beautiful
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Horse shit.



Now taking applications for the position of girlfriend.

guys... you are stupid.
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onesandzeros:
What if I wear a dress, would that count?
viva_disgraziata:
bah...we're not stupid. just dumb.
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I want to be someones muse
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mandragora:
Funny you say that. I don't remember where you're from, but if you live anywhere near me, I know a photographer who wants to basically have a "muse" for about 6 months. Someone to shoot and get to know as a friend, and basically be the common subject in a series of photo shoots... all sorts of themes, maybe even some underwater stuff.

Let me know if you're remotely interested.
sinkflsink:
What's going on kid? How are you doing? Things seem to have been keeping you quite busy these last couple months. Congrats on that!
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I have not been active on here in the least latley,I need to cut that shit out.
All the "friends" I havemade so far have forgotten me.Sorry guys.
I suck at managing my time
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musicsnob:
I never have time to do this shit either, but dont worry, i wont forget about ya. Hit me up.
brightredscream:
I don't have a lot of time either...
So no worries.
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ferrara:
intergalactic menopause!! tongue
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I am awfully sick.

Throwing up in your sleep is scary...
Pizza is terrible coming back up...So are banana peppers.

So is stomach fluid.


Oh

and

FUCK DRY HEAVING

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kemicalphuture:
FOOD POISIONING?
DRINKING?
PUKING SUCKS.puke NO DOUBT.

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brightredscream:
I totally agree with you.
I hate when there are animals that have tragic and pubically told stories that adopters come flying out to be "heroes"....

I know when the shelter that I volunteered with had public cases that brought in a lot of attention...we encouraged people to check out our other animals...It's tough, and frustrating.

Thank you for the birthday wishes though!!

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