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Last night was bizarre. Woke up in the wee hours, feeling entirely shivery and gross. Continued to feel gross for a couple of hours, and then it started to go away, and suddenly for the first time in years I started to feel ...peaceful, I guess. Like things were okay and the running dialogue in my head about things to fix or do or what have you, it all went away. Like I just couldn't hang onto upsetting thoughts. I didn't get a whole lot of sleep so I'm not feeling quite as astounding this morning, but I still feed bizarrely calm. Kinda cool.