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Yesterday was one of those days of unusual clarity. It started out with the flight back home. I've made an art of never, ever checking baggage unless circumstances are very unusual. Yesterday, obviously, was quite unusual. It didn't end up being too much of a pain in the ass but in principal the whole thing makes my heart hurt. I can't shake the feeling that the whole thing is just made up to boost Somebody's approval rating. Then went to see the lovely LadyRay. That girl is such a fucking fighter, she's got cajones like you would not believe.
Then came home and thought about my situation and what I need to do to get to where I want to be. Had a few epiphanies that put me in an oddly calm state of mind, in a twitchy sort of way.
The short of it is, depending on how one particular situation comes out, I may start to look into moving to San Jose in October. Part of me really doesn't want to go, but part of me thinks I need some time and distance for a while. We'll see. I hope like hell that it doesn't come to that and it may not be feasible anyway, but... who knows.