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Wednesday Jun 14, 2006

Jun 14, 2006
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My friend may be coming to stay with me for the next couple days, starting tomorrow. On the one hand, I'm totally looking forward to girly time with her. On the other, it's kind of a reminder that I'm not where I want to be, because she is. She married her best friend since she was 5, she's got 2 beautiful kids, she's got a house and just got a job she's been striving for for years, which also happens to mean she'll get to spend more time with her baby.
I'm...in a tiny, shitty little apartment, living by myself.
Not that I don't see the value of this situation by what it's not and for what I'm learning, but it's most certainly not where I envisioned myself at 30 when I was a kid.

Oh and I'm really sleep-deprived and I don't think the antibiotics are working because I'm still in constant pain and my face is still numb.

Aren't I just sunshine and light today!
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starisea:
Oh! *squish*

I'm so sorry that your head isn't feeling better, and it sounds like you have a nasty case of the "comparision blues". Lately, they come knocking on my door a lot too. (even though, deep down, I know that it is irrational) We need to go have a drink and expunge those blues, so feel better soon! (please.)

kiss
Jun 14, 2006
fallfromgrace:
I agree with the Strongmad. I have friends my age that have all that... the house, the kids, the spouse. What it means is they have the mortgage payments, no time to themselves, and well, marriage... I think you know the downsides to that.

Just remember that life just is. You aren't being graded, and there's no score. When you die no one is gonna say "well, they win because they had "X, Y, and Z".
Jun 14, 2006

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