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The 365 will be re-started. Jaxy's dedication to completing her 30 day meme made me want to do it. For now, let's see if I can make it a month. I'll be starting a blogspot most likely, and posting the link here. I don't want to post them all in my attachments. I might post them every week in a 365 folder here. But the...
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I need the motivation to try and start a 365 project again.
Really badly. It doesn't help that it's next to impossible to take a good self-portrait with my rebel unless you have a tripod and other crap.

I need to make a new video for SG. I've spent so much time making them for MGF, I forgot about you guys. =[ Poo on that....
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So apparently I still had today! haha, oops.
Don't worry, I'm sure my set will be accepted into MR soon! Otherwise, I will probably end up paying for a month. I spend WAY too much time on SG not to have it anymore.

Also, our land rover decided the current brake shoe wasn't good enough and then firestone decided to bust up the fucking caliper...
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Tomorrow I lose my account.
I have a set pending review, but I only submitted it Wednesday night. Or maybe Thursday. But it's been recently. I was hoping it would be accepted in time to re-new my account, since I still have another set to share and a shoot with Lorelei next month.
=[ I know I'll have the account back, but I might be...
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No matter what happens.
No matter where I go, what I do, or what I say....

I will always love my husband.
I will always try my hardest to put him before everyone and everything else,
including myself.
I may fail, but I'm always trying. Hard.
He is my everything.
And he may have his failures as well, but I have been, and always will...
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Thank you everyone who gave me support in my last blog.
I read every comment, realized how badly it needed done, and closed my eyes.
What I saw when I closed my eyes is what drove me to finally make the call.
I saw the look in my husband's face when I say hurtful things.

I made the call, and after determining that I was...
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I'm so so terrified to call people.
I've been starting fights with my husband, telling him I'm leaving him and that I don't need him.
When I do, I really do.
And last night I did it AGAIN.
I am hurting him, because I'm hurting.
I need to make the phone call, and start seeing someone.

All I have to do is call this 1-800...
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Edit; Amarena is the most awesome girl ever.
and the set has been titled MISSED THE BOAT
because it was Modest Mouse based in the begining.
and even though the mood of the set doesnt match the mood of the song, its still a piece of me. and theres a line in the song for every photo.

I have just heard back from Lorelei and...
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The 4th was amazing.
I'm glad I got to spend it with my husband before he leaves.
Reekie got to see Modest Mouse.
I'm finally on the road to submitting new sets.
Hopefully I will have a chance to work with Lorelei over block leave, the set I want to shoot is AMAZING. I know she'll love it, and so will all of you.
My...
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I love cooking unique meals and making up my own recipes.
I love sitting on the couch with my husband and falling asleep to futurama.
I love hockey season.
I love buying Army shirts.

I hate what whiskey does to me.
I hate the way I tend to feel.
I hate the way I over react.

I love my life.
I love my husband.
I...
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Read this when you're going behind my back.
For the most part these last few weeks, you've treated me like crap.
You haven't been supportive. You haven't listened to me.
You haven't asked me anything. You ignore the ways I've been bettering myself, the ways I'm trying to make it all better.
You can't see what I'm doing, and you don't care to look.
You...
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