I think this about the only place I can vent these days. I have a Deviantart blog, a myspace blog, my own domain with a blog, and this. But I don't use Deviantart blog, myspace people will read it, my own one I don't know what to do with, and I deleted my livejournal because well... I just had to many damn blogs. Consolidation people!
Life has been wierd, a long rollercoster I wish I could control. I have so much on my mind at the moment I break down from stress at least once a week and have no idea what to do with myself.
I spent a lot of my late teens quiet and away from people and never talking. No interest in girls as they had no interest in me. I was never attractive to people so I went on about my way, after getting into gaming I started to meet people I had a lot in common with and it helped me open up. I finally had a decent relationship when I was 23 and felt loved by someone else for the first time in my life, instead of being told I was a failure. I still love her, but we will never talk again after what happened.
I changed a lot over the last year and a half physically and tried to make an effort to make myself look presentable when seeing people. Now I've come to a stage where I'm being chased by girls and it makes me feel uncomfortable with them throwing themselves at me. I think I have about 6 or something, but there is only one girl who isn't that interests me as a whole. But I'm literally terrified of asking her out for fear of rejection, I guess that comes down to me not having as much self confidence as I'd like from previous experiences. I've only known her 2 weeks and contacted me via the internet and met her already. But as I said, fear stops me from asking her out.
My little Danimal made a point that if I don't she will slip through my fingers and I won't get the chance. Not someone I would want to lose, she's so nice to me and the most gorgeous thing I've ever seen.
Credit to Dani, as bueatiful as she is and has every guy hitting on her. She is a strong person and I'm glad I met her. Never have I clicked with someone so instantly as Dani. I promise myself I will listen to her more. Dani you are a wonderful person, and I promise I will come to Sydney and see you soon.
I wish that all the girls chasing me would go away, and I could just have Natalee.
Unfortunately it is never that easy.
I am also being pestered to go to the Gold Goast for New Years holidays, but as I've repeated to the pesteree that I will not be making a decision about it until after my final court appearance. Don't worry I'm not a psycho, I broke a window after having a drink spiked
Almost a year this has been dragging on and I wish it to end so badly.
I may use this to vent more often, I do feel slightly better.
Life has been wierd, a long rollercoster I wish I could control. I have so much on my mind at the moment I break down from stress at least once a week and have no idea what to do with myself.
I spent a lot of my late teens quiet and away from people and never talking. No interest in girls as they had no interest in me. I was never attractive to people so I went on about my way, after getting into gaming I started to meet people I had a lot in common with and it helped me open up. I finally had a decent relationship when I was 23 and felt loved by someone else for the first time in my life, instead of being told I was a failure. I still love her, but we will never talk again after what happened.
I changed a lot over the last year and a half physically and tried to make an effort to make myself look presentable when seeing people. Now I've come to a stage where I'm being chased by girls and it makes me feel uncomfortable with them throwing themselves at me. I think I have about 6 or something, but there is only one girl who isn't that interests me as a whole. But I'm literally terrified of asking her out for fear of rejection, I guess that comes down to me not having as much self confidence as I'd like from previous experiences. I've only known her 2 weeks and contacted me via the internet and met her already. But as I said, fear stops me from asking her out.
My little Danimal made a point that if I don't she will slip through my fingers and I won't get the chance. Not someone I would want to lose, she's so nice to me and the most gorgeous thing I've ever seen.
Credit to Dani, as bueatiful as she is and has every guy hitting on her. She is a strong person and I'm glad I met her. Never have I clicked with someone so instantly as Dani. I promise myself I will listen to her more. Dani you are a wonderful person, and I promise I will come to Sydney and see you soon.
I wish that all the girls chasing me would go away, and I could just have Natalee.
Unfortunately it is never that easy.
I am also being pestered to go to the Gold Goast for New Years holidays, but as I've repeated to the pesteree that I will not be making a decision about it until after my final court appearance. Don't worry I'm not a psycho, I broke a window after having a drink spiked
Almost a year this has been dragging on and I wish it to end so badly.
I may use this to vent more often, I do feel slightly better.