alphamale

All right, that's it, no more of this stupid Emo crap. Over the past month or so I've become a very whiney little bitch. I'm pretty sure it has to do with a couple things. A) The girl. I'm slipping back into the bad habit of being an overly emotional little pussy and that stops....Now! B) The time of year. Winter has never been to kind to my emotional stability but I have to remember that it's just a couple of clouds. I can't complain about the weather because it's pretty much typical for Oregon and I've done this over and over for the past two decades so there's no good excuse.

I've come up with a few possible ways to raise my testosterone. I need to start working out. Beside the idea that this will firm up the little beer belly I've got it will give me more energy and improve my posture. The next part is a little more difficult but it's necessary. I have to figure out how to distract myself from thinking about the girl all of time. Lately my mind has been so focused on trying to figure out how to let her know how I feel about her that I've been thinking way too much with my heart. I realized this weekend that I don't need to sit and stew on how or what I'm going to say to let her know because my actions speak clearly enough. She knows how I feel about her and I'm pretty sure I know how she feels so I just need to just fuckin relax and go with things.

This morning my roommate pointed out to me that I really don't have anything to complain about so I should just shut up and be happy. So here I am tickled fucking pink to be alive....seriously.

Oh yeah, and I'll be eliminating all of the crappy Emo music from my playlist. Staind, Linkin Park, Evenesence and all the rest go straight in the toilet.