So, It's the Fourth of July and how has my day been?
Full of shitty comments from my parents. Not only that, I have to spend this fucking "holiday" alone. Where is my boyfriend? In Boston with his family. I'm happy that he gets to see his family, but why now.
So here are some of the conversation that are going on.
me- today is my half birthday!
my evil bitch step mother- well, your still 20, nothing exciting.
me-wow, thanks.
We are having dinner and my brother brings over his girlfriend. She hasn't spoken to her family since a few moniths ago and my father makes the suggestion that my brother should drop her off a block from her parents house and she should just show up and try to talk to them then. Keep in mind, she is adopted and she left their house for good reason.
So, he makes that suggestion and my brother and I look at each other and say wow, that's showing real support. and my father starts going on about how that a real easy way to get in and all that. so then he turns to me and shouts, what do you know about parenting! and i was shocked. so then my idiot step mother says, well when she gets there with no one else they will wonder how she got there and then they will be forced to take her home.
Oh that's a great way to get into someone's life again. let me show up at your doorstep and expect you to take me home. I don't think so. Needless to say I said nothing more. I kept my mouth shut because that is all bullshit. It's none of our business what goes on with her and her parents. I may not know about parenting, but i know about being a daughter and what it's like to try to get back into a parents life.
These are the times when I wonder about if staying at home is really saving me that much in life. I have a full time job and I save my money. When I stay here I get so stressed with the shit that they pull that I can barely stand to be here at all. I'm not sure if i will ever have a good relationship with my step mom and i would love to have one with my father, but he just gets so angry that all I hear are the bad things that are being flung at and how am I supposed to deal with that?
Oh, and for my birthday my step mom wants to have me go to New York with her....and her old boss....and her daughter who is turning 18 while we are there....and her family friend.....and her son who is turning 18 while we are there. What a great 21st birthday! I get to hang out with people that are way over legal and just under legal. I wonder if i kill myself there or on the way home....
Full of shitty comments from my parents. Not only that, I have to spend this fucking "holiday" alone. Where is my boyfriend? In Boston with his family. I'm happy that he gets to see his family, but why now.
So here are some of the conversation that are going on.
me- today is my half birthday!
my evil bitch step mother- well, your still 20, nothing exciting.
me-wow, thanks.
We are having dinner and my brother brings over his girlfriend. She hasn't spoken to her family since a few moniths ago and my father makes the suggestion that my brother should drop her off a block from her parents house and she should just show up and try to talk to them then. Keep in mind, she is adopted and she left their house for good reason.
So, he makes that suggestion and my brother and I look at each other and say wow, that's showing real support. and my father starts going on about how that a real easy way to get in and all that. so then he turns to me and shouts, what do you know about parenting! and i was shocked. so then my idiot step mother says, well when she gets there with no one else they will wonder how she got there and then they will be forced to take her home.
Oh that's a great way to get into someone's life again. let me show up at your doorstep and expect you to take me home. I don't think so. Needless to say I said nothing more. I kept my mouth shut because that is all bullshit. It's none of our business what goes on with her and her parents. I may not know about parenting, but i know about being a daughter and what it's like to try to get back into a parents life.
These are the times when I wonder about if staying at home is really saving me that much in life. I have a full time job and I save my money. When I stay here I get so stressed with the shit that they pull that I can barely stand to be here at all. I'm not sure if i will ever have a good relationship with my step mom and i would love to have one with my father, but he just gets so angry that all I hear are the bad things that are being flung at and how am I supposed to deal with that?
Oh, and for my birthday my step mom wants to have me go to New York with her....and her old boss....and her daughter who is turning 18 while we are there....and her family friend.....and her son who is turning 18 while we are there. What a great 21st birthday! I get to hang out with people that are way over legal and just under legal. I wonder if i kill myself there or on the way home....
DO NOT DO THAT FOR YOUR 21ST.
jeez that sounds lame.
love you keep your chin up