allure

Its only a matter of time before things fall apart. Am i being too fussy or not enough. Who fucking knows....all i know is that this is not what i want for my lifetime. There has to be something more because i am not happy enough......when will i ever face this.....i know the answer already.....i will keep living my life pretending everything is perfect and telling myself this is the best it can get. I will take what is good and focus on that and multiply it to make me feel better, whilst everything i hate will build up and slowly eat me away and turn me bitter.