Hello, Sweeties. I found out last night that Twin's Ugly Bitch Slut has been getting on here to show people my pictures and make fun of them. While the other people were not participating in this, I am still going to take action to prevent this from happening further. So I have decided to change all my albums so that only friends can see them. I am sorry if this is a bit of an inconvenience to anyone. I never wanted to ever make my photos viewable to friends only, but I had to do it.
You see, it was only a couple years ago I went through hell with my body. When I turned 10 years old, I hit the 100 lbs mark. Though I had already sprout past 5' at the time, my mom thought 100 lbs was too fat. For years after, it's all I heard from her. She thought I was too fat, too ugly, and completely unlovable. She would ground me from eating for a week if I even did the slightest thing wrong. My church was the only thing that saved me at the time (my parents did not go so they did not know). They would hold so many food based events throughout the week just to make sure I would have food. I will never forget their kindness.
It took years for me to see my mother was not mentally well. I did not know when I was younger, so I was badly mentally damaged myself for a very long time. It wasn't until right before I joined this community did I really see how beautiful and lovable I am. I still struggle with it sometimes, but that is my struggle to bear. No one else can make me believe I am beautiful and lovable besides myself. My mother and I stopped speaking for a while a couple years ago when she thought that my ex fiance left me because I was too fat. After the couple months, she has yet to ever call me anything bad. I love my mom dearly. I forgave her a long time ago.
However someone coming into my life, stealing my best friend and lover (Twin), and then getting on this site to put me down further is terrible. I am disgusted with her for trying to put herself up through putting me down. I have only ever been nice to her despite my own pain. I even gave her a Christmas stocking so she wouldn't feel left out of our group. Clearly I have been too nice to someone who never deserved it.
So I am ending this with I am beautiful. I am kind. I am loving and lovable. I will forgive her in time too, but right now I am just hurt.
Bites and Kisses,
Al
You see, it was only a couple years ago I went through hell with my body. When I turned 10 years old, I hit the 100 lbs mark. Though I had already sprout past 5' at the time, my mom thought 100 lbs was too fat. For years after, it's all I heard from her. She thought I was too fat, too ugly, and completely unlovable. She would ground me from eating for a week if I even did the slightest thing wrong. My church was the only thing that saved me at the time (my parents did not go so they did not know). They would hold so many food based events throughout the week just to make sure I would have food. I will never forget their kindness.
It took years for me to see my mother was not mentally well. I did not know when I was younger, so I was badly mentally damaged myself for a very long time. It wasn't until right before I joined this community did I really see how beautiful and lovable I am. I still struggle with it sometimes, but that is my struggle to bear. No one else can make me believe I am beautiful and lovable besides myself. My mother and I stopped speaking for a while a couple years ago when she thought that my ex fiance left me because I was too fat. After the couple months, she has yet to ever call me anything bad. I love my mom dearly. I forgave her a long time ago.
However someone coming into my life, stealing my best friend and lover (Twin), and then getting on this site to put me down further is terrible. I am disgusted with her for trying to put herself up through putting me down. I have only ever been nice to her despite my own pain. I even gave her a Christmas stocking so she wouldn't feel left out of our group. Clearly I have been too nice to someone who never deserved it.
So I am ending this with I am beautiful. I am kind. I am loving and lovable. I will forgive her in time too, but right now I am just hurt.
Bites and Kisses,
Al
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pointman11:
I am soprry to read what you have been going through. No onme deserves to be put through that and you have shown tremendous class in extending out to her. I hope things get better for you
kryon:
Hope all worked out well. I've send you a request, cause I want to see those pictures 