allan

I have been to the depths of hell.............and that hell has a name....strep throat
it feels like taking a handful of tacks and swallowing them....over and over again..
ill update more when i get my strength back fully.
i miss you guys

The wind plays tribute to you and I
The thunder an opus for all time
Yet 'tis the rain that beckons as the rays shine forth
A testament to our prime
Twas in those days you see
That the howling moan of the sea cry out
Twas a ballad for only me
Twas a banshees mourning indeed
-GIR (2002)

Cherish all of that which is...
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It was in that moment, yes, when i took your hand. Fate was shook loose from its moorings, yes i was thrown asunder into this place. It's all you im sure, go ahead shoot me, cut me into little pieces so that the shadows of my emptiness can surround you with their cold embrace. Yes, embrace that frigid depth as i once had for so...
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This certainly is the final countdown.....................

Last night I was dragged to Canada for my friends birthday (not 21). i haven't been there since i was 20, and last night i remembered why.............i saw this fight on the street from start to finish right in front of me.........a kid got thrown through a window.......there was blood all over the concrete, and i had an epiphany.........this...
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Die, die, die my darling
Don't utter a single word
Die, die, die my darling
Just shut your pretty mouth

I'll be seeing you again
I'll be seeing you in hell

Don't cry to me oh baby
Your future's in an oblong box, yeah
Don't cry to me oh baby
Should have seen it a-comin' on
Don't cry to me oh baby
I don't know...
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i drank as i watched you live your life.......
it played out like a dream right before me....
its old hat..........
but i cant let go......
when is enough.........enough........
wheres the chance encounter............
wheres my fucking gold at the end of the rainbow......
i felt like breaking.........i felt..............
i felt like throwing bottles through the jukebox........
but.......your head would still stay faceted........
even when i...
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awake alone in a womens room i hardly know........
awake alone pretend that i am finally home.........
the room is littered with the books and note books......
i imagine what they say like "shoo fly don't bother me".
and i can hardly get out of this bed for fear of......
never lying in this bed again.................
oh christ im not that desperate.......................
oh no.....
oh...
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the sun went dark today..............
this is............
the way the world was.........is........
will never be for you and i...........
the only light....anywhere......is in my mind
in your dreams........somewhere.......
maybe we'll find it............
the glimpses of you tie my mind..........
like barbwire..................
cutting deep..........let it bleed........
until you know that is..................
until the rivers meet..............
when the world collides

note to self.............drinking vodka all day saturday.........should not be followed by a trip to cedar point sunday..........arrrgghhh..........
every time i go to the point..........i end up people watching......its muse overload......i end up leaving the park with more ideas for poetry than i can write down.........ohh well..........im going to go eat some cheesecake............i love all of you guys by the way........especially the CP crew......and Hiroe....dont worry...
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The fallen are the chosen,
The vehicles for conquest are frozen.
It's an ungodly scent that eminates within.
I believe...oh yes it is fealty of karma.
It must have been a hint from the mindless.
A cardinal sin...
A tower in these fields lies fallow,
Yet it is not my habit to dwell in the stark,
To hide sequestered in the shadows.
That in entirety...
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FRAILTY
Shattering ice in the cul de sac......
it was me who faltered.....
but i know youll never be back......
i never want to leave my bed again........
for fear the world has somehow been altered.....
but you showed me that door......
pushed me through.....
and its taken all this time to claw my way......
my way.....
from that tomb....
so take that heart, yeah..........
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So he would sulk, and drink, and cross his arms and hope to die........................and than a fairy came one night to bring the sorry boy to life...............................she pulled some strings..........spun him around..........that voice rang up.......and began to shout..........my arms, my legs, my heart, my face they are alive..............and she would cry LIAR LIAR, what have i done.........your no lover and im no fighter..............the story goes...
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