I've read both sides of the story and this is my conclusion.
This place is fucking lame. I was one of the first 100 people to join this site, and I've been kicked out of here once. I'll gladly go a second time. Too bad no one will see this because I don't doubt Sean will be making all kinds of fun threats to the girl that posted this. This is what he does...
Anyways, one of many posts that were zotted as someone exited the site in one of the famous 19 girls in 19 days crew.
So, this is my last journal as I'm sure I'll be kicked soon.
Demokitty, Matt knows how to get a hold of me on myspace so, you need my number right? Get to Portland.
A former SG that Jay greatly admires says:
'i'm done biting my tongue':
i would like to set the record straight about a few things. my intent
behind exposing SG is solely due to my innate urge to act in a
socially responsible manner. i am a strong believer of truth and
integrity, and am firmly committed to such behavior (of course i fuck
up sometimes, and will fully admit it when i do). for those of you who
think this is about money and the dvd, you are sorely mistaken. to be
perfectly honest, we were originally only offered $1, 000 before the
thing was even put together. i agreed to partake in the project for
fun, before any royalties were ever offered up. i didn't expect to get
rich from it. i didn't really expect much. i am fully aware of what i
originally agreed to. now, in the early stages i was not aware that
the dvd would be sold at best buy, virgin, tower, etc... i was not
aware that it would be aired on showtime for 2 years. i was not aware
that sean was going to promise us each a 5 cent royalty after re-coup.
i was not aware that he would use this royalty "promise" to manipulate
us into doing free promotion. i was not aware that he would be so
angry when asked to follow through with his word via contract. i was
not aware that i would have to sign a confidentiality contract in
order to receive any payment at all on the dvd. i was not aware that
sean would tell me that his time was worth at least $100/hour and he
had put at least 200 hours into the dvd, which would be tallied onto
the re-coup. i was not aware that he would threaten to tally up the
re-coup just to ensure that he would get his money back first (which
is plenty). i was not aware that he would attempt to intimidate me
with his money and lawyers.
now, all this aside...i honestly do not know if the dvd will ever
re-coup at all. as far as i know, the whole thing has been a a big,
stressful heartache for sg. they all put a lot of time and effort into
something that may or may not ever pay off. i have seen sean working
hard on this project and know that it has been a huge frustration for
him. my only grievance over the dvd is that i was lied to and told
things like, 'the dvd sucks because you guys are a bunch of vapid
idiots' and 'an ass sex video wouldn't have paid you as much'.
This leads me to the constant verbal abuse and threats that sean
dishes out to models, or anyone who gets close enough to experience
his personality. i have heard him call everyone in the office "fucking
morons and idiots" on numerous occasions. i have heard him call
models, "sluts", "whores", "junkies", "stupid", etc...this list is
longer that i care to write. in fact the burlesque tour girls had an
on-going joke about this, and actually wrote and taped a piece of
paper that read "YOU SUCK! - from sean" on our costume bin. sometimes
ya gotta make light of the ugly stuff. i have watched girls (my
friends) cry themselves to sleep at night (on numerous occasions) due
to his verbals insults and downright mean behavior. i have also heard
sean laugh about it later...amused at his own demeaning antics.
now, this is not to say that sean is all evil...he has a very
intelligent and charming side. one that i got along with very well
with for some time. in fact, if you're on his good side, he's full of
perks and favors. he has given me free banners ads, free clothing that
often gets sent into the office for sampling purposes, bought me food,
let me drive the company car around, and let's not forget i lived in
his house for 2 months...where i kept things tidy, ran the occasional
errand, and gave him and a couple of the girls private yoga lessons.
it was great for a little while, until he started having random
outbursts at me and calling me names. in fact i'll share just one
experience: about a month ago, sg received a box of sample shirts from
a company that is supposed to start making sg merch. usually sean has
whatever girls are around try on stuff and everyone sort of decides
what they like and don't like. i think he was dissatisfied with the
samples for whatever reason, which put him in a bad mood. the rest of
us were trying stuff on and commenting on it. i made a comment on a
print that i didn't like...saying that the shirt was rad, but would be
better with a different print. suddenly sean snaps at me and says "why
don't you just shut the fuck up lady, no one asked you!" then he went
on to say 'that i was too old to understand the demographic and that i
had no idea what i was talking about *insert sneering voice*'. mind
you, this is in front of three other people, 2 models and a staff
member. i just stared at him in silence, got up and left. after taking
a walk, i came back and confronted him. i told him that telling me to
'shut the fuck up' and insulting me, hurt my feelings and was honestly
one of the meanest things i had heard spat at me in quite some time.
it was mostly in the way he said it. he took no responsibility
what-so-ever. he told me that he was "just joking" and that he thought
'we were good enough friends to be able to talk to each other like
that' and 'he was sorry if i misunderstood him'. totally played it off
like nothing. i reminded him that my friends and i do not talk to one
another like that. ever.
this is just one of a zillion incidents that represent his
condescending, rude and disrespectful antics. between some of the
girls, we could write a book. i'm dead serious.
now, i find it quite bizarre and unsettling that this is the man
behind what is supposedly an empowering web site, "run by women".
knowing sean over the past year and 1/2 and getting to know to him on
a personal level has made me understand what people mean when they
talk about 'misogyny'. i have confronted sexism in the workplace,
school and other such institutions. let me tell you, NOTHING compares
to the behavior i have witnessed from sean. i have never in my life
heard a more patronizing voice. the sarcasm behind it is sometimes
enough to make your skin crawl. he thrives on fear and prefers to keep
those around him in such a state. in fact, he has threatened to sue
and imprison many of us girls who are speaking out or leaving the
site. some people are terrified of his bark. i am not. i signed a
confidentiality contract, and i honestly do not care if i break it. i
am not bothered by sean boasting of his 'friend in the fbi' or other
such power trips. the difference between sean and myself is that i
have nothing to lose. go ahead, take my records and books away, cuz
that's about all you'll get. go ahead...try to put me behind bars, my
internal strength and depth supersedes ANY external environment. you
think i care if you sue me sean?? don't be crass! i have been poor my
whole life and wouldn't trade the wealth of my experiences for the
world. what are you going to do...torture me?! kill me?! hah, i refuse
to be afraid, so fuck off! everything that i speak of is the truth as
i have experienced it, and i believe that other models deserve to know
who they are working for. i believe that the people should know where
their money is going. i believe that if my experience and my words can
help enlighten others, it would be a disgrace to keep it to myself.
olivia seems to think it's petty to put my energy forth into such a
small company. well, i firmly believe in "thinking globally and acting
locally". i sure wish someone had told me about suicidegirls before i
bared my flesh and promoted their lie. "feminism"?...what a crock of
shit! there is nothing "punk rock" or "feministic" about sg. they have
merely tapped into an audience of young hipsters and turned it into
something that is "trendy" and "cool". it's no wonder that the
majority of model applicants are barely 18. it's the 'alternative,
hipster-girl' thing to do!
now, i am not bothered by the fact that sean owns a soft porn site,
just don't LIE about how you portray it. who cares. change your
marketing antics. BE HONEST. sean is very business savvy, and i have
no doubt he couldn't successfully run this site with
integrity...unfortunately i do not think he cares to evolve in such a
manner. i am not out to destroy sean, or missy or olivia, etc. i
merely want the truth to be known. i have no desire to end up in court
over this, and i definitely have no desire to attempt to gain some
sort of profit from this. in fact, if for some strange reason i was
ever given another dime from sg, i wouldn't touch it with a ten-foot
pole. mark my word. i want nothing more from this than to peel the
wool from your eyes. i'm tired of the lack of morale in our world
today, and i am fully committed to shedding light upon darkness in any
way i know how.
This place is fucking lame. I was one of the first 100 people to join this site, and I've been kicked out of here once. I'll gladly go a second time. Too bad no one will see this because I don't doubt Sean will be making all kinds of fun threats to the girl that posted this. This is what he does...
Anyways, one of many posts that were zotted as someone exited the site in one of the famous 19 girls in 19 days crew.
So, this is my last journal as I'm sure I'll be kicked soon.
Demokitty, Matt knows how to get a hold of me on myspace so, you need my number right? Get to Portland.
A former SG that Jay greatly admires says:
'i'm done biting my tongue':
i would like to set the record straight about a few things. my intent
behind exposing SG is solely due to my innate urge to act in a
socially responsible manner. i am a strong believer of truth and
integrity, and am firmly committed to such behavior (of course i fuck
up sometimes, and will fully admit it when i do). for those of you who
think this is about money and the dvd, you are sorely mistaken. to be
perfectly honest, we were originally only offered $1, 000 before the
thing was even put together. i agreed to partake in the project for
fun, before any royalties were ever offered up. i didn't expect to get
rich from it. i didn't really expect much. i am fully aware of what i
originally agreed to. now, in the early stages i was not aware that
the dvd would be sold at best buy, virgin, tower, etc... i was not
aware that it would be aired on showtime for 2 years. i was not aware
that sean was going to promise us each a 5 cent royalty after re-coup.
i was not aware that he would use this royalty "promise" to manipulate
us into doing free promotion. i was not aware that he would be so
angry when asked to follow through with his word via contract. i was
not aware that i would have to sign a confidentiality contract in
order to receive any payment at all on the dvd. i was not aware that
sean would tell me that his time was worth at least $100/hour and he
had put at least 200 hours into the dvd, which would be tallied onto
the re-coup. i was not aware that he would threaten to tally up the
re-coup just to ensure that he would get his money back first (which
is plenty). i was not aware that he would attempt to intimidate me
with his money and lawyers.
now, all this aside...i honestly do not know if the dvd will ever
re-coup at all. as far as i know, the whole thing has been a a big,
stressful heartache for sg. they all put a lot of time and effort into
something that may or may not ever pay off. i have seen sean working
hard on this project and know that it has been a huge frustration for
him. my only grievance over the dvd is that i was lied to and told
things like, 'the dvd sucks because you guys are a bunch of vapid
idiots' and 'an ass sex video wouldn't have paid you as much'.
This leads me to the constant verbal abuse and threats that sean
dishes out to models, or anyone who gets close enough to experience
his personality. i have heard him call everyone in the office "fucking
morons and idiots" on numerous occasions. i have heard him call
models, "sluts", "whores", "junkies", "stupid", etc...this list is
longer that i care to write. in fact the burlesque tour girls had an
on-going joke about this, and actually wrote and taped a piece of
paper that read "YOU SUCK! - from sean" on our costume bin. sometimes
ya gotta make light of the ugly stuff. i have watched girls (my
friends) cry themselves to sleep at night (on numerous occasions) due
to his verbals insults and downright mean behavior. i have also heard
sean laugh about it later...amused at his own demeaning antics.
now, this is not to say that sean is all evil...he has a very
intelligent and charming side. one that i got along with very well
with for some time. in fact, if you're on his good side, he's full of
perks and favors. he has given me free banners ads, free clothing that
often gets sent into the office for sampling purposes, bought me food,
let me drive the company car around, and let's not forget i lived in
his house for 2 months...where i kept things tidy, ran the occasional
errand, and gave him and a couple of the girls private yoga lessons.
it was great for a little while, until he started having random
outbursts at me and calling me names. in fact i'll share just one
experience: about a month ago, sg received a box of sample shirts from
a company that is supposed to start making sg merch. usually sean has
whatever girls are around try on stuff and everyone sort of decides
what they like and don't like. i think he was dissatisfied with the
samples for whatever reason, which put him in a bad mood. the rest of
us were trying stuff on and commenting on it. i made a comment on a
print that i didn't like...saying that the shirt was rad, but would be
better with a different print. suddenly sean snaps at me and says "why
don't you just shut the fuck up lady, no one asked you!" then he went
on to say 'that i was too old to understand the demographic and that i
had no idea what i was talking about *insert sneering voice*'. mind
you, this is in front of three other people, 2 models and a staff
member. i just stared at him in silence, got up and left. after taking
a walk, i came back and confronted him. i told him that telling me to
'shut the fuck up' and insulting me, hurt my feelings and was honestly
one of the meanest things i had heard spat at me in quite some time.
it was mostly in the way he said it. he took no responsibility
what-so-ever. he told me that he was "just joking" and that he thought
'we were good enough friends to be able to talk to each other like
that' and 'he was sorry if i misunderstood him'. totally played it off
like nothing. i reminded him that my friends and i do not talk to one
another like that. ever.
this is just one of a zillion incidents that represent his
condescending, rude and disrespectful antics. between some of the
girls, we could write a book. i'm dead serious.
now, i find it quite bizarre and unsettling that this is the man
behind what is supposedly an empowering web site, "run by women".
knowing sean over the past year and 1/2 and getting to know to him on
a personal level has made me understand what people mean when they
talk about 'misogyny'. i have confronted sexism in the workplace,
school and other such institutions. let me tell you, NOTHING compares
to the behavior i have witnessed from sean. i have never in my life
heard a more patronizing voice. the sarcasm behind it is sometimes
enough to make your skin crawl. he thrives on fear and prefers to keep
those around him in such a state. in fact, he has threatened to sue
and imprison many of us girls who are speaking out or leaving the
site. some people are terrified of his bark. i am not. i signed a
confidentiality contract, and i honestly do not care if i break it. i
am not bothered by sean boasting of his 'friend in the fbi' or other
such power trips. the difference between sean and myself is that i
have nothing to lose. go ahead, take my records and books away, cuz
that's about all you'll get. go ahead...try to put me behind bars, my
internal strength and depth supersedes ANY external environment. you
think i care if you sue me sean?? don't be crass! i have been poor my
whole life and wouldn't trade the wealth of my experiences for the
world. what are you going to do...torture me?! kill me?! hah, i refuse
to be afraid, so fuck off! everything that i speak of is the truth as
i have experienced it, and i believe that other models deserve to know
who they are working for. i believe that the people should know where
their money is going. i believe that if my experience and my words can
help enlighten others, it would be a disgrace to keep it to myself.
olivia seems to think it's petty to put my energy forth into such a
small company. well, i firmly believe in "thinking globally and acting
locally". i sure wish someone had told me about suicidegirls before i
bared my flesh and promoted their lie. "feminism"?...what a crock of
shit! there is nothing "punk rock" or "feministic" about sg. they have
merely tapped into an audience of young hipsters and turned it into
something that is "trendy" and "cool". it's no wonder that the
majority of model applicants are barely 18. it's the 'alternative,
hipster-girl' thing to do!
now, i am not bothered by the fact that sean owns a soft porn site,
just don't LIE about how you portray it. who cares. change your
marketing antics. BE HONEST. sean is very business savvy, and i have
no doubt he couldn't successfully run this site with
integrity...unfortunately i do not think he cares to evolve in such a
manner. i am not out to destroy sean, or missy or olivia, etc. i
merely want the truth to be known. i have no desire to end up in court
over this, and i definitely have no desire to attempt to gain some
sort of profit from this. in fact, if for some strange reason i was
ever given another dime from sg, i wouldn't touch it with a ten-foot
pole. mark my word. i want nothing more from this than to peel the
wool from your eyes. i'm tired of the lack of morale in our world
today, and i am fully committed to shedding light upon darkness in any
way i know how.