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Now Reading: Blood Countess - can't remember the author, not getting up to look. Book about Elizabeth Bathory.
Oh sweet fucking irony... You are my new best friend.
So. In the course of a week I went on my 1st, 2nd, and 3rd date with the new girl. It's been interesting to say the least. She's pretty much everything I never knew I wanted.
Like me she is: Always down for anything, into lots of excellent sad music, various remnants of different subcultures, book addiction, doing nothing and having a great time doing it, blah blah blah. She really is almost exactly like me.
As for sex, well, I've never been more physically compatible with anyone. It's almost crazy. We are exactly alike with what we're into. The semi-rough stuff, whatever. Lots of biting, hair pulling, that crap. It's ridiculous. On our second date we went at for about 10 hours, and our 3rd date was 14 hours straight. I've never been that much of a horse in bed. If I go for 2 or 3 hours I feel like a fucking God. No pun intended. But, in those 24 hours of sex and general groping, she's had over 35 orgasms. And, she never quits. She always wants more. It's so fucking hot... If she wants it, I can't stop myself.
The rub is: I'm not over my last girl. And when I look at the new girl, I see myself very much being capable of falling in love with her. If we keep spending time together, it will happen. Being male, that scares the shit out of me getting that close. I love my space. I love my freedom. I love going to diners alone, hiding in the corner and reading for hours on end with no one to answer to. I love picking up and leaving PDX for days on end without having to tell anyone where I'm going. And, I love it more than good sex and witty banter.
I don't want a girlfriend, but I don't just want someone to fool around with. I don't know what I want. I just know I'm not over the last girl and I'm really really confused. I do know that my bedroom prowess is off the charts at this point and spending $30 on condoms in 2 days is insane.
Now Reading: Blood Countess - can't remember the author, not getting up to look. Book about Elizabeth Bathory.
Oh sweet fucking irony... You are my new best friend.
So. In the course of a week I went on my 1st, 2nd, and 3rd date with the new girl. It's been interesting to say the least. She's pretty much everything I never knew I wanted.
Like me she is: Always down for anything, into lots of excellent sad music, various remnants of different subcultures, book addiction, doing nothing and having a great time doing it, blah blah blah. She really is almost exactly like me.
As for sex, well, I've never been more physically compatible with anyone. It's almost crazy. We are exactly alike with what we're into. The semi-rough stuff, whatever. Lots of biting, hair pulling, that crap. It's ridiculous. On our second date we went at for about 10 hours, and our 3rd date was 14 hours straight. I've never been that much of a horse in bed. If I go for 2 or 3 hours I feel like a fucking God. No pun intended. But, in those 24 hours of sex and general groping, she's had over 35 orgasms. And, she never quits. She always wants more. It's so fucking hot... If she wants it, I can't stop myself.
The rub is: I'm not over my last girl. And when I look at the new girl, I see myself very much being capable of falling in love with her. If we keep spending time together, it will happen. Being male, that scares the shit out of me getting that close. I love my space. I love my freedom. I love going to diners alone, hiding in the corner and reading for hours on end with no one to answer to. I love picking up and leaving PDX for days on end without having to tell anyone where I'm going. And, I love it more than good sex and witty banter.
I don't want a girlfriend, but I don't just want someone to fool around with. I don't know what I want. I just know I'm not over the last girl and I'm really really confused. I do know that my bedroom prowess is off the charts at this point and spending $30 on condoms in 2 days is insane.
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glad its working out though
things are working out on my end too
but im sick and feeling crappy and i want to DIE
oh god.
i ache everywhere. wayyyyyyyyy too sick to do anything.