alice

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intentional vs. unintentional

i hate the feeling when you're not exactly sure if you've (unintentionally, but w/o much thought) made somebody really mad at you. it's like this big knot in your stomach. or maybe it's more like this thought that you just can't really get out of your head. i'd like to think that this isn't the case, but uncertainty prevails.

unintentional acts revisted. do you ever ignore your phone when it rings, with or w/o looking at who's calling, just because you don't feel like answering it/talking to anybody? people start to leave you messages, but you forget to call back, or you've got a bunch of crap on your mind. you feel like you owe some sort of really valid excuse, because in most cases "i had a lot on my mind and/or was feeling anti-social" doesn't cut it.

these are unintentional things, not designed to hurt anyone, but still they do. i so rarely intentionally ignore or hurt people, unless i feel i have good reason to. unintentional acts catch up with me before i take deep thought and feel like the most horrible person in the world.

i guess intentional or unintentional, i always get myself into trouble. that's how life goes.

i wish all of life could be like those cute little crushes that you get on the most deserving people. sure, crushes can be horrible, but i only mean the nice ones, where you *blush* constantly and walk around with the silliest of smiles, and a majority of your thoughts revolve around this person. those are the best.

thanks for your suggestions of movies and dirty music. i'll get back to you when i can stomach staring at my computer for awhile. i would never intentionally ignore you. if you think of any more suggestions, please let me know.

this concludes today's broadcast of intentional vs. unintentional. please adjust your stereo.

* please not that this is not a plea for anyone to kiss my ass. i'd much rather hear something else from you.