alicat

see, i feel sort of like that about my past relationships - moving on can be a struggle, especially after the longterm ones (i was with someone for nearly 4 years) but you end up feeling like surviving that struggle is some kind of catharsis.

i view them - relationships - as little self-contained parts of my life that were necessary, and helped me evolve into who and where i am now. . . so everything becomes essential, even the ones that really hurt when they ended, because i'm happy now, and without those. . . my life might have gone down some other track.

no regrets.

i put blue velvet on, principally because my girlfriend hadn't seen it - which i couldn't believe. they're so sheltered in sweden to some extents, especially artistically. dennis hopper is the best thing about that film, though, in all his unhingedness - definitely my favourite villain from any film, ever, and certainly one of the most memorable.

anyways, i would love to keep in touch with you if you fade to grey, a fate which i think i may be embracing rather soon too for one reason or another. i don't feel compelled to renew my membership anymore. . .

drop me a note, though, whatever you choose to do.

hope your week is going well