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I've been watching the DNC again. Something someone said reminded me... who remembers "read my lips: ** *** *****"?

Also, my mom informed me that the president choked on a pretzel while watching tv a while ago. I can't believe I missed it. Apparently it was big news. Eh, I blame the ivory tower.

I can't help but think that if I'd studied poli-sci or something that maybe I could actually make a difference in the world. Maybe I could be making a difference right now instead of trying to find a job where I maybe get to do math and writing down all my stupid inconsequential thoughts in a journal read by a hundred people (if that) on a softcore alternaporn site. I look at what's happening to my country, my poor sweet beloved country, and I want to scream and cry and pound the stupidity out of the heads of so many of her citizens with bricks. Don't they see Big Brother gaining power? Then I listen to the speeches from the DNC, I listen to what Kerry has to say about how he's going to help her, my country, and I have to believe that Hope Is On The Way, and Help Is On The Way, or else what is there left for me? People say I should move if I don't like it, but how can I abandon my country in her hour of need? What this country was founded on is worth protecting. Is it worth dying for? Hell yes it is. Can we do any good by dying for it at this point? Hell no we can't. But maybe I could do something if for the last four years I hadn't been selfishly pursuing what I love and instead had been learning how to do some good.

I don't believe in any god, and I certainly don't believe in any benevolent god. No, if there's a god he's one fucked up malicious bastard who doesn't give a damn about any of us or beyond that probably revels in our suffering. Just look at this place. Fucking look around you. Look what happens in the world. How could anyone worship a god that allows things like AIDS, FGM, famine, torture, radiation poisoning, slavery and republicans (heh) to exist? Well, either way, with or without god we're still fucked. I try to believe that humans can get out of this mess they've gotten themselves into, but with all the willfull ignorance in the world, and all the hatred and intolerance, and the unwillingness to think for themselves people have... well, it's a wonder we've made it this far.

I'm tired, and I probably fucked all that up, and I'll probably come back to find a hundred inflammatory comments about how wrong and stupid I am, but fuck it, I'm going to bed.

I remember what I was going to say before. I want my wasp waist back.
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frankmask:
I was one of the little kids who used to think that if you worked hard enough, you could do good things, help people, save the world. Then my dad started working for non-profit groups, and I learned that although they're well meaning they are also incompetent and plagued by well meaning idiots. I grew up enough to understand politics and history as much as anyone can, and it made me sad because all I saw was endless evil in new and interesting combinations, throughout the length of recorded history.

Now, mostly, I try not to worry about it, and work on simple little things that matter to me and almost no one else. I'm not sure I could handle trying to work for a better tommorow. Working with all of time as precident for my failure would get to me after a little while.

Though if you're just now starting to doubt your potential ability to be a super hero, you've beat the statistics by six years. Supposedly most people give up on making good use of their lives at around twenty two. And if you did want to be a super hero you've got a decent start for a costume with your insect girl sun glasses.
Aug 1, 2004
exis_t:
You are a very angry young lady frown I aggree, you might have less than a hundred people that read your journal, but i bet you there's more than a thousand that look at your pictures. I give you a big thumbs up in the air and flash you my sexy smile smile
Aug 1, 2004

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