it's my journal!!! (if you already read the intro about interstitial cystitis, check out today's thoughts underneath the row of pretty pretty stars)
i thought it would be cool to document teh life of a chick who's got the girlie-disease "interstitial cystitis."
a lotta people don't know what I.C. is so here goes: incurable tiny ulcers inside the wall of your bladder make it hard to walk, exercise, eat, drink, fuck, dance, breathe, smell flowers, blah blah blah.
the thing is? i have this disease and i'm still kickin' ass.
and other for-real chicks that have bullshit going on with their bodies can relate.
no matter what our mutherfucking misogynistic doctors, sadistic nurses, well-meaning family members, and uninformed aquaintances say, we are awesome, and we can do a good job of taking care of ourselves, thankyouverymuch.
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Okay, this entry isn't meant to be a come-on or sexy in any way. So don't get the wrong idea. I just want to put this out there for people. Cause I think there's a lot of stuff we don't know about the ladies' bodies.
I have wet dreams.
Freaky? I don't know.
They started in my eartly twenties at a time when I was enjoying a fulfilling sex life in my awake hours.
For the first couple of years, I always woke up riiiiiiiiight before the good part. I think I woke myself up with my quick breathing. After such an anticlimactic experience, my girly-junk would hurt SO bad! Maybe a female version of blueballs or something (blue-clit?). The pain would only go away after I found some way to finish myself off.
These days, I would say I have them once a week. Most of the time I wake up too soon, but about once per month I manage to stay asleep long enough and I get to finish. In those cases, I always wake up DURING the orgasm and I'm not touching myself or humping the bed or anything. It seems like the stimulation comes solely from the content of my dreams, which frequently involve just some vaguely sexual situation, not explicit sexual contact.
The strangest part of this, for me, is that while I'm awake, I have to have a lot of very specialized stimulation over a 10-20 min period of time etc. in order to be able to come (Sorry! Spelling it "cum" just makes me think of ejaculate, and I don't have any of that). And I would NEVER have guessed I could finish just based on excitement and mental imagery, though I read about a girl who could do that once.
In the past 4 years, I've seen female wet dreams mentioned twice in print. So I know I'm not the only one, but I wonder if more girls have them than we know. I have NEVER heard a girl describe any thing like the "blue-clit" I get, where the pain is associated with arousal but no satisfaction. Is that because they're shy....or because I'm a freak? I guess it doesn't really matter, but it is a kind of interesting topic, don't you think?
i thought it would be cool to document teh life of a chick who's got the girlie-disease "interstitial cystitis."
a lotta people don't know what I.C. is so here goes: incurable tiny ulcers inside the wall of your bladder make it hard to walk, exercise, eat, drink, fuck, dance, breathe, smell flowers, blah blah blah.
the thing is? i have this disease and i'm still kickin' ass.
and other for-real chicks that have bullshit going on with their bodies can relate.
no matter what our mutherfucking misogynistic doctors, sadistic nurses, well-meaning family members, and uninformed aquaintances say, we are awesome, and we can do a good job of taking care of ourselves, thankyouverymuch.
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Okay, this entry isn't meant to be a come-on or sexy in any way. So don't get the wrong idea. I just want to put this out there for people. Cause I think there's a lot of stuff we don't know about the ladies' bodies.
I have wet dreams.
Freaky? I don't know.
They started in my eartly twenties at a time when I was enjoying a fulfilling sex life in my awake hours.
For the first couple of years, I always woke up riiiiiiiiight before the good part. I think I woke myself up with my quick breathing. After such an anticlimactic experience, my girly-junk would hurt SO bad! Maybe a female version of blueballs or something (blue-clit?). The pain would only go away after I found some way to finish myself off.
These days, I would say I have them once a week. Most of the time I wake up too soon, but about once per month I manage to stay asleep long enough and I get to finish. In those cases, I always wake up DURING the orgasm and I'm not touching myself or humping the bed or anything. It seems like the stimulation comes solely from the content of my dreams, which frequently involve just some vaguely sexual situation, not explicit sexual contact.
The strangest part of this, for me, is that while I'm awake, I have to have a lot of very specialized stimulation over a 10-20 min period of time etc. in order to be able to come (Sorry! Spelling it "cum" just makes me think of ejaculate, and I don't have any of that). And I would NEVER have guessed I could finish just based on excitement and mental imagery, though I read about a girl who could do that once.
In the past 4 years, I've seen female wet dreams mentioned twice in print. So I know I'm not the only one, but I wonder if more girls have them than we know. I have NEVER heard a girl describe any thing like the "blue-clit" I get, where the pain is associated with arousal but no satisfaction. Is that because they're shy....or because I'm a freak? I guess it doesn't really matter, but it is a kind of interesting topic, don't you think?
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P.s. how are those nipple piercings healing? The crust gone??
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