akirali

I seriously don't know how to function in the real world. All my attempts to do so end in embarassment. I alienate all my friends because of this. I'm tired. So fucking tired of so many things. Too many things. I hate feeling like an asshole, but thats all I feel like anymore.

No. I'm not gonna get into it. And no, you have no fucking idea why I'm sad tonight.

For the first time in a long time I have a plan. I am not floating aimlessly anymore, I'm not wasting time. 2 months from today I will have a new job. 8 months from now I will have another job and will be moving. I'm tired of sitting still and feeling helpless and worthless to myself and others. I have a focus, and a...
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They like the small talk, as long as it's about you
They walk that walk without knowing how to
I watch it all and pretend that I'm above it
But the truth is I see it, I need it, I love it
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Remember when you knew you knew all the answers?
Well something shook till you though you had the questions
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Fuck this...
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Dear Valentine's Day,

Please die in teh fase.

Thank You,
Management

Dance monkey. Dance, you goddamned monkey.

Definition of a good day:

-Paycheck is $125 more than expected
-Tight schedule at work (that threatened my ability to attend a concert) is loosened by a cancelled show
-One episode that we tape is with Uma Thurman's dad (a really cool guy by the by)
-I make it to concert (pictures when I get back from work) and get Sage Francis' new cd

These are your orders: Everyone go and welcome my friend lyfeforce with open arms. He rocks quite liberally.

I'm so tired of living in a world full of fucked up men who ruin people's lives. Somedays I wish I could kill them all. Before they could hurt anyone I love. And shatter lives and steal innocence. Today is one of those days.

For reasons I won't get into I am straddling between seething rage and sadness. Why is the world full of people who don't care who they hurt? And why can't people just leave my loved ones alone?