I'm so fucking lost and no where to be found.
I can't seem to grasp my mind around what I want.... what I feel or anything. I keep getting pulled into these directions and I really don't think this is healthy.
I'm "seeing" a girl in Nelson but thats 400miles away. So what do I do now? My heart wont tell me.
Do I try to make the distance work and be sad while not being able to see her? Keep in mind I have never met this girl and going off of skype dates and phone calls what am I to feel or do. So many questions so my friends of the SG world help me clear my head give me advice SOMETHING please....
ALSO
My ex is still madly in love with me... and I can't take feeling guilty that I have moved on. We are still friends but I moved home for a fresh start and she isn't making it easier on me. Fuck lesbians and their drama.
PS:
I feel as though I am also relapsing with my anorexsia.... and all the stress and being overwhelmed with feeling isn't good. I don't sleep. I don't eat and when I do it makes me sick so thats really not good. My ulcers are in sever state. I'm a mess. This is just going to eat me alive again I can feel it. Time to see the doctor once more.
I can't seem to grasp my mind around what I want.... what I feel or anything. I keep getting pulled into these directions and I really don't think this is healthy.
I'm "seeing" a girl in Nelson but thats 400miles away. So what do I do now? My heart wont tell me.
Do I try to make the distance work and be sad while not being able to see her? Keep in mind I have never met this girl and going off of skype dates and phone calls what am I to feel or do. So many questions so my friends of the SG world help me clear my head give me advice SOMETHING please....
ALSO
My ex is still madly in love with me... and I can't take feeling guilty that I have moved on. We are still friends but I moved home for a fresh start and she isn't making it easier on me. Fuck lesbians and their drama.
PS:
I feel as though I am also relapsing with my anorexsia.... and all the stress and being overwhelmed with feeling isn't good. I don't sleep. I don't eat and when I do it makes me sick so thats really not good. My ulcers are in sever state. I'm a mess. This is just going to eat me alive again I can feel it. Time to see the doctor once more.
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gigondas:
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bl8228:
When im usually torn among different things, I make a list of all the pros and cons of each item. Then I go with the item that has the most overall pros. Hopes this helps! Thank you for the add as well!